Big Walls and The Blue Sky..

mutiara di dasar hati =)

2006-03-27T11:45:00.000-08:00

sabtu lepas we had ceramah "tepuk dada tanya iman".n i just finished reading "nikmatnya pacaran setelah pernikahan".bibit2 keinsafan mula subur di dada.ya Allah,manisnya keimanan terhadapmu.sesungguhnya lelaki yg baik utk perempuan yg baik(An Nisa'24:26).kenapa nak cari jodoh yg baik?sbb kite nak pasangan yg mempunyai kehendak yg sama dgn kite iaitu mencari keredhaan Allah.kenape nk cari keredhaan Allah?sebab kite tahu hidup di dunia nih sementara.n kite hidup nih semate2 nak cari bekalan ke akhirat,tempat yg kekal abadi.cemane nk dpt jodoh yg baik?kenelah perbaiki diri dan akhlak.ya Allah,perbaikilah akhlak dan imanku yg sememangnya serba serbi kekurangan.hidup akan indah jika semata2 n ikhlas kerana Allah.manisnya iman terhadapMU =).so guys n gals (yg masih solo di merate dunia) takyah risau pasal jodoh.takkan kite tak yakin dgn firman @ janji Allah dlm surah An Nisa' tuh.just try ur best to improve urself.percayelah di saat anda sdg membuat kebaikan @ memperbaiki diri anda ke arah kebaikan ada seorg lain di sudut dunie nih tgh buat mende yg same berniatkan semate2 kerana Allah.when the time comes,dtglah jodoh tuh.hati2 tuhkan milik Allah.die yg menggerakkan hati2 manusia.belaja bebetul duluk.hehe.

besday bash (so called)

2006-03-22T22:31:00.000-08:00

ecot limah baya n marlia...aku rase rindu kat korangg...mungkin sbb aku tgh usha page friendster ecot kott..*sigh
anyway last nite i stayed up late to do azzahra bulletin choosing articles to put in,fiddling n poring through the pages of a few religious books.i slept at 2.haha..it was kak syirah's 2* besday bash!!huahua.all of us gave kak syirah a scare exactly at 12.but i(well unofficial unappointed leader)was the first to knock on her door while she was sleeping n since i was clueless wut to do right wen she opens the door i simply sergah her HAHHH!!sian kak syira terkebil2.im not even sure why i did that.a few seconds took me to get the inspiration to take her hand n guide her to the living room.well as planned earlier as we arrive everyone started screaming n singing eppy besday loudly(almost to shatter the silent neighbourhood).eniwey we ate the delicious fresh cream cake (rase tak cukup=( ) n presented out our present to her.the unpalnned part was to play the truth or dare game afterwards(in the midst of everyone's sleepiness).predictably,choosing the truth part definitely means u'll be bombarded wif ur dirty little secret crushes a.k.a love life(gals just can never breakaway wif dis stuff,don they? =p).a few gave in n did confess honestly.WAH!as the tables are turned on me i chose the wiser path by picking "dare" instead of truth refusing to reveal my private love life (*wink-wink:hehehe).that was easy as everyone noe im just capable to do anything.huhaha.i will not write wut i did anyhow.hehe(konon2 misterilahh tuhh)

we already had a netball net hung on our big front yard tree(thanks to my so called "ajk sukan" initiation.everyone seems to have fun playing without professional training or experience.i just pity the neighbourhood for having to put up wif the increasing quantity or intensity of screaming that we had been spreading lately.heehee.im supposed to do my revision.i have an assignment to be finished.i have to find my tutorial materials.but here i am still lazing around.

i promise musashi i will do the meme later (wut is a meme eniwey?)

are u afraid of the hospital??

2006-03-21T10:25:00.000-08:00

DEATH FACTS:

gun owners vs medical practitioner
900X death risk by medical practitioners..

air flight vs medical practitioner
10 000x u are more likely to die in the hands of medical practitioners
than in air flight...huhaha...
(death risk in medical case 1 in 2000)
(death risk in an air flight journey 1 in 2 millions)

now be afraid...be really afraid to go to hospital!haha..well..people have this mindset that we are more likely to die in an airplane than getting treatment in a hospital since yeah..hospital is being regarded as kinda sacred place where u seek for cure n ur living hope is renewed.guess that we have to give it a second thoughts.herm..i've been thinking bout specializing in surgery(heh..berangan..insyaAllah)..this matter scares me..hihi

p/s:i kinda like dr adi utarini's style of teachingg..cewll..hehe..anyway i think all public helth lecturers are very good,confident,n VERY knowledgeable..hehe..

im bored

2006-03-20T16:25:00.000-08:00

im currently bored wif my life a.k.a blok 5 dat we're learning.i dun mean to sound soo boring but actually just to get this off my chest.well..i keep complaining dis especially to kePPPAm which is sitting right behind me at dis mo (kepam dahagakan populariti murahan)---->owh nak empathy sbb demam.haha.aku kan bengiss.(korg mesti tak phm)

papelaa..eniwey aku tlah menghabiskan hujung minggu dgn membace angels and demons.haha.best gak.tapi takley lawan da vinci's code.cume aku bangge yg aku dpt teke sape culprit de tanpe melihat endingnye..haha...rasenye aku dah dpt teke rentak dan's brown..hukahak.
erm lagi...ha,...basketball..lawan nutritionist arituh kitorg menang..30 lbey melawan 6..hahaha..gempak jugaklah...kak aliah mengamukk...shoot dgn jayanye..aku jadi defender...ganas gak aku main time tuh..yela..tgh naik syeh..hehee...yg pastinye mmg best arr..puas ati arr..a gug game..very indeed..dak laki pon mnang gakk..so nx weet plak lawan lagi..doakan kegempakan kitorg..hahahaha

hello...xde soalan yg susah lagi ker?

2006-03-08T01:16:00.000-08:00

uwaaa...soalan takde yg lebey senang ker??hish pressure aku pressure tau tak...huhu..
yg plg aku geram tuh aku mmg slalu sgt bulatkan jawapan pastuh padam balik tuko jwpn lain.dari dulue.huh.aku dah agak dah...tapi aku buat jugak...
huhuhu...eniwey sok xm anatomy lab...2 more exams to come..tlglah aku ya Allah aku tak stat stadi anat n taktau nk stadi ape.bagilah aku hidayahhh...kuhukuhuuu

lots of misses~

2006-03-06T00:29:00.000-08:00

mummy called me on da 2nd march.1st march was her besday.im so glad dat she sounded so hepi after me worrying dat she might feel distress due to all of her anak dara is dispersed everywer.hehe.kak huda just got posting in klcc,career management carigali petronas.congrats dearie!u go girl...so she's staying in kl now.wif kak kima.
n wif tma stranded in mrsm mersing.dey visited her in da hostel n she cried.haha.da gangster gal had finally found her way home!haha.let her learn to cherish her family more!hehe.but despite that still menyempat crite yg kene gosip wif da most handsome guy in her batch.herm tak abes2 stealing da most gud looking guy around.kawen cepat2la.mumy pon kinda miss tma's bickering.nana plak skang dah tau A-Z.skang blaja mengeja.mak kate de kiut gle.ish geram nye aku..nantile tunggu aku balik jun nih.rindu gle kat de.now mum's left alone wif cune n da two boys man n mishad.yesterday was mishad's besday too.i miss mishad too...i cant believe i actually miss da boys.mcm tersentuh plak dgr suare de smlm.yela slame nih mane pnah fon ckp ngan mishad.mishad dajah5.miss nk borak2 n kaco de.miss nak let him sit on my lap on da car.mis nak usap pale de.mis nak ejek de uncle scrooge@mate duitan.mis nk ejek de makan gelojoh.miss...miss..miss..miss..huhu.
i've berfoye2 too much for now.i have a week of examinations coming.u ought to b stadying now toyy!!huhu.otai ar aku nih.lepas meeting exco sukan tadi terus online dah 2jam.hehe.
keyla pade kengkawan sume..toten kurt kuden gudlak gak xm..ganbate....!~
beshnye totin nak balik weeken nih..hehe...

talk about dis

2006-03-01T17:45:00.000-08:00

actually i was in the no mood to go to class today.the 7am class by dr dicky remembering his past sexual reproductive lecture that got me bored and a bit annoyed at certain moments.well as im writing dis im truely glad dat i did come to the endocrinology lecture given by him.i sat at the front row, gladly enjoying his lectures n gained quite good knowledges that hopefully insyaAllah stuck in my brain.well i few things about life that i feel i wanna share n preach about...

1)REDHA
talk about redha.i got an eyesore dis morning dat i suspected of conjunctivitis probably infected from iman.i told myself neva mind if u'll look ugly today.u will look ok if ur heart n kindness glow.keke(poyo).sbenarnye dlm hati dah mule nak merungut tapi tetbe teringat kita mestilah redha dgn apa yg Allah tentukan tak kire baik @ buruk.alhamdulillah bile redha rase cam dah ok plak skang nih.bukan bile Allah bagi bende2 best jek kite redha n bersyukur.ok.cam xm.kalo dpt result ok happy, tapi kalo dpt result terok mulelah pk yg bukan2 cam Allah tak syg kat kitelah apelah.pastuh kalo dpt ok lak ade jek yg tak kene.tgk org yg dpt lebey drp kitelahh.hish2.nih crite benar nih bukan bohong.tulah manusie.tak penah nak bersyukur.padahal kalo Allah taknak bagi ape2 tuh boley jek.wlaopon kite dah usaha gile2.sebab segale sesuatu tuh pon Allah punye.kalau de nk bagi alhamdulillah jadi jadilah manusia yg redha dlm ape jua keadaan sekalipon.sesungguhnye aku dah rase takde mood nk tulis lagih.haha.sambung esoklah.dah bnyk dah makhkluk2 lain dtg nih.hilang konsentrasi aku

toy...toy

2006-02-19T17:55:00.000-08:00

mlm tadi pakai inai beramai2 smbil tgk movie kiss the girl.ade morgan freeman.i just simply love morgan freeman (i mean his acting skills n movies he plays in).kak syeera baru balik dr haji!last friday i spent the whole evening shopping n window shopping.i cant believe dis! (so crappy!)..i bought a really striking orange striped senakers from Gosh! that only costs me around rm40 (ade offer).herm.that was more unbelievable (it is damn striking..im serious!).everyone told me:wut made u choose dat shoes?huhu.ignorance.slambe jek aku pakai ngan baju kurung.then me n iman shophopped from malioboro to galeria,for ida's birthday celebration..huh.i was so damn tired n flustered.i direcly went to bed afterwards.ya Allah yesterday's nite i was awakened at 12.30am in the nite suffering a damn stinging pain on my left ear.god it was damn painful i thot i was dying.i almost cried n cringed in pain.after half an hour deciding not to spend the rest of the night suffering all alone, i went to cek pah's room (thenk god she was still studying).she was shocked to see my condition.luckily she gave me panadol actifast which managed to alleviate my pain and put me to sllep an hour afterwards.on cekpah's bed.it was so scary that last nite i decided to sleep wif azra in case the pain recurs again.seriously that was the most painful pain i've ever experienced.i wonder how the cancer patients and the other chronic disease felt.it made me promise myself dat onwards i would fathom the sufferings and pain of them.fuhh!so there goes my weekends.once again i've broken my promise to spend the weekend dating wif my medical books.God,help me.my exam is 2 weeks away.i still have reproductive n endocrine systems topic to come!
owh.i forgot to tell.i just turned a mega post for a mega event due to certain reason.n im glad i did.i think im wiser n more decisive *wink-wink-perasan

JUMBLE RUMBLE

2006-02-10T21:12:00.000-08:00

uwaa...how i soly miss to write in dis blog of mine!hey, i've got to write a lot here..so hangon der n me keep on writing ere..

HARI ASYURA
my kompak batch did a kinda sambutan 4 hari asyura last thursday.almost all of us gathered at our cost (sendowoquek).we fixed a large periuk of bubur asyura (big!for 40 people) despite our seemingly neverending histology lab session(imagine a 2 days row of histo lab where 1 lab costs 2 and half hours!!duhh(a series of silly drawings and meniruing)) .anyway we also ordered catering from ibu selamat (malaysian's most favourite lunch spot!) for our break fasting plus agar2 prepared by pong n her teammates which me and nadiah bawak lari n balun*(acting selfish).da best part was!!(after dey all were gone and us da sendowoqueks were left to do all da cleaning job) whilst rain was falling damn heavily kaka i pushed has into the rain just to see da effect of ME (n my ownself) to be dragged into da rain n consequently me acting crazy screaming n yelling trying to get the others to also be involved in da rain playing scene.Though i only managed to pull only atikah (with has help) i managed to threaten da others to run and stay locked in their room.kekeke.i simply enjoyed da whole scene.

MY SISTERS ARE MY BEST FRENS
oh just by writing this make me more realized how i miss dem soo much!called home the other day(which costs me around rm 15) n chatted wif 2 org penganggur : 1)my eldest sister huda who graduated on december n now finishing her fragments of life by serving da household (haha!).she's waiting for her petronas job offer.i just hope she wouldn't get a too faraway posting (sabah ke sarawak ke). 2)my 16 yer old sister tma who is waiting to register 0n da 20th feb in mrsm mersing (u go gal).i just feel soo happy for her n wish i could send her on her registration day alongside my family(poyyo).mersing will be nice and plus mrsm has been her dream.i noe u'll do fine darling sis*
besides,husna (my 2 and half yer sis)is getting smarter day by day.she loves to read book and act (imagine how cute-berlakon mati!).sis told me dat she goes everywhere spelling all da sukukata she could find.i just hope by da time i return home(on june!) she can read n already becoming a genius!(high hope)

SATURDAYS FOR EVERYONE
heyheyhey..we all have our own saturdays.sum of us goes shopping sum goes dating sum even go for their hepatitis b injection (keke..aini n has).to me weekend means covering my sleeps(as if i lack of dem!), spring cleaning,going to taruna,pasar pagi trip n like today upimi meeting n basketballs!

HATI YG DIUJI
xtaulah.rasanya spt Allah is testing my soul.i've been having this neverending once in a while (or once in a week) confusion wer my mind will be in a chaos n i just get confused.is this normal?do other people experience this?am i the only one?is this just a part of growing up?i dunno.wen i tell the others they will reply "tipu ar ko.cerie jek aku nengok ko tuh".herm.(tuh yg aku mls nk gtau sume org tak caye)(eh.tapi im still sane key?)well everyday we have to decide.from wut to wear to each of our action.between right n wrong.sumtimes i do the wrongs.n it bothers me.my confusion or ketidaktenangan indicates that i've done sumthing wrong.Allah is really testing me.sumtimes i also wish dat Allah tests me in other matters.ujilah perkara lain jgnlah uji hatiku.tp Allah knows better.Allah uji cos de syg kite.org lain pon Allah uji jugak.bhgn lain.cume de sedar ke tak sedar.kalau sedar then evaluatelah diri.u will make it through tahirah.
i just choose to ignore those confusions.life goes on (",)

sensitippp

2005-12-07T20:24:00.000-08:00

been sensitive due to overly homesick..
demam panas 3 days ago...
im not sure whether my fever has anything 2 do with me being homesickk
adakah ini perasaan biase utk perantau2 wlaupon kat indonesia jek?
waiting sickly n deadly to get home..isk2...
tak caye toyy ley mega homesick cam nihh

hahai

2005-11-29T19:41:00.000-08:00

lamenye tak menulis.hehe..today is my besday..hahai!!sweet 20!cant believe its already a yer since i last wrote in dis blog regarding my previous besday..cewl~ramai gak yg wish my besday...ngan bdak2 laki yg nak pau me suruh belanje deorg..wey..takder duitlah weyy...hehe..totin bagi toblerone..cek pah bg pink hat..eda bagi sunglasses..hehe..belle bagi bangle kayu..kak ayeshah buat kek..pau de backpack baru..pau kepam pencilcase..pau maya bantal pelok..pau tkah selipar rambu ramba dlm bilik..yeye..kak gym n pong nk bagi sumthing..hehe kak gym harap2 bukan serunding..iman bg kate2 best nak gantung kat bilik n de kate ader lagik nak bagi..aZra bagi kad besday selit bwh pintu..kiut..thanks u guys cutieee

erm..it has been quite stressful lately..anatomy banyak giler kene hafal...i mean...gile2 banyak tau!n menurut helwa..ramai sgt repeat blok nih..n with me sebok setelkan my flight ticket so have not been doing much of studyingg..luckily dah setel..
6jan 11.50am jakarta-kl
22jan 10.20am kl-jakarta
amik yg transit.domestic bli 2 weeks b4 actual date...i've got sum worries too..i pray dat:
1)OSCE (skills lab) bkan hari jumaat tuh!!please~
2)ade flight domestic pagi jumaat tuh dat allow me to be at da jakarta airport at 9.30..
3)nih plg best..harap2 im not all alone..ade mlesian lain yg also amik trip tuh..isk2

trip batch ke borobudur prambanan n pantai baron:bestlah jugak cume penat gile sehari suntuk jalan smpi malam..took lotsa pic!nanti me post later..quite happy jejalan ngan batchmates...brg2 kat nborobudur pon agak murah..shuld have bought more..hehe~

sendowoquek tambah lagi 2org ahli baru:fed n yati...deorg baru pindah umah kak ayeshah..hehe...tambahlah beban kak ayeshah...muahaha~

a year older...hopefully wiser n better!

wut i've been up to?

2005-11-21T09:13:00.000-08:00

ok..habis xm blok.2day dah enter third blok.seniors say its da killer blok of da sem.i suppose so.if last blok its all about biochem histo n physio.dis blok it's a mixture of everything.with much emphasize on physio n anatomy n a slight hint of histo n biochem.so basically dis blok is about how human monitor senses and regulate responses n maintain a balnce internal environment.so u got it:its all bout homeostasis,ear and eye,nervous system n musculoskeletal system.uwee.n i think i have resolution bout dis upcoming blok.im gonna be more focused organized n rajen!insyaAllah.alhamdulillah i think dat i kinda get da studying rhytm beating once again!yo dats da spirit(hopefully!).tak kesahla if result blok 1 aND 2 mencipan.boley jek remedial.n if i've been extremely distracted.its time to focus.insyaAllah.

last weekend (saturday n sunday) were our intermedicine olympic.im telling first:da biggest outcome is dat:im having extremely exterified SUNBURNT!whoa~seriously~dahle makin gemok skang nih..huhu.i'll brief u all bout da 2days event.buat kat pancasila stadium dkat nganour faculty.im supposed to masok 4x100 but withdraws at da final moment due to sebab2 tertentu.nevertheless.me played handball.da final match was tough against da 2003 batch.well wut dya expect..deorg tuh wakil inter basketball!erm..takpelahh...no 2pon orait gak..guys pon mnang minisoccer n soccer 2nd.tapi yg memfoulkan kitorg adalah olahraga.haha.tuhla stephanie (dak german batch kitorg tak dtg).geetha (sprinter terhebat aka my grupmate) pon malas nk masok.cess~kalo tak mesti bley menang.hehe~.paling best ialah rase kitorgnye batch paling kompak!ramai sgt yg dtg.sume org pakai baju putih nak accompany guys yg tempah jersi putih for their soccer team.though we didnt win first tapi sgt2 best cos we menang cheer n really njoy ourselves!hehe.now i feel so much closer to my batchmates (",).kiut.

ade bnyk lagi nk criter tapi sambung nantilahhh...kol 11 ade anatomy lab.nak pg library

huhu

2005-11-14T12:48:00.000-08:00

Stability 43%
Orderliness 50%
Extraversion 76%
Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.

Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

expressive, open, self revealing, loves large parties, loud, social, outgoing, does not like social isolation, assertive, social chameleon, positive, always busy, likes to fit in, likes to stand out, enjoys leadership, brutally honest, trusting, optimistic, desires attention, dominant, aggressive, attachment prone, wants to be understood, realistic

herm...my personality test result...ley percaye ke??
huhu...
result of surfing instead of studying in the midst of an e.x.a.m activity
toy...toyy

so now wut?

2005-11-09T14:52:00.000-08:00

eppy belated raye semue..ikutkan hati mlsnye nk update blog nihh..arghh..dh jadik pemalas~~bagoss...haha..parcel yg my beloved sis kak huda hantar dah sampaii..sok nk pg amik kat kantor pos..tapi sengal btol pos kat cni..dah smpi cni pon nk pau org lagik..corrupt gle..suruh aku bayo 7ribu rupiah..tak pnah aku dgr penerime parcel kene bayo lagik..caj utk ape aku pon tak tau..panas2
raye..ape yg dah berlaku?banyak bende...sehari sblom raye...pagi2 hati dah rase heavy..sunyi sepi bukak tv dah keluar iklan takbir..isk2..balik bilik (dgn harapan nk menangis)..tapi mujurlah kak ayeshah nk kak shirah memanggil aku n sisa2 sendowoquek yg still ade :has azra n aini utk rewang masak2 utk raye esok!!(air mate simpan balik).dlm kesyahduan tuh..kopek2 bwg smbil crite2 smbil dgr kasel lagu raye yg kak shirah pasang..isk2..barulah rase nk raye ckit
sorg kene bayo 50 ribu rupiah utk makan2..last day pose so msk best ckitlah:nasi ayam utk semue pemegang saham.
mlm tuh rewang masak rendang2 n ketupat..hehe...aku wat kueh mazola ngan oven kak aishah yg antik gle tuhh.pastuh m,ummy call..hati dah rase enlightened ckit...rindu semue!husna dah pandai cakap shalap+shutup,suke pusing2 dah pandai berangan kalo jumpe getah suruh tima ikatkan rambut de..pastuh (menurut kak huda) dah pandai wat blood oath ngan tima (konon2 trademark deorg)..nih gara2 crite white chicksla...ape nk jadik..aku sendirik pon tak penah tgk cte white chicks tuhh..hins2
raye 1st:
solat raye kat masjid kampus..1st tiem smayang atas rumput...ramai gle org kat padang graha saba lagilahh ramai org..most mlesian solat kat ctuh...then amik gambo raye ngan mlesians yg ader..sdey raye kat cni..along da route nk masuk masjid tuh ramai sgt beggars mintak sedekah n merate2 rmai sgt nampak org yg treat harituh cam hari2 biase as if its not hari raya at all.sbb they don even have money to buy food (or sara diri) apatah lagi new clothes..kesian sgt tgk budak2 kecik yg comot2 n berbaju lusuh even though its hari raye.mesti deorg tak rase kemeriahan raye langsung kan?kesian sgt.insaf aku.then seniors dtg rumah kak ayeshah tolg layan2..pastu pg umah pak aminn bapak kos seperti bese aku memonsterkan dirik(kene pakse)pdhal perot dah kenyang gle cm nak pecah..
ptg tuh plak pg open house rumah abg rusydan makan sate.rupe2nye tarvin (mlesian 4th yer medic ugm stdnt yg arrested sbb drug abuse n dealing tuh) dah dibebaskan pon.kene penjare 2 bulan jek.beselah.kat cni ade duit sume ley jadik.corruption2.kalo kat mlesia tuh entah2 dah ley kene gantung.ish2.pastu proceed ke rumah kak hazar makan me utara(aku tak bape suke..hehe..lagipon perot siries mmg nk pecah)..blom lagi wey..mlm tuh plak makan roti jala kat umah abg atoi.pasnilah adegan yg aku tak suke.aku pinjam motor kak shirah.then tanpe dsedari aku telah terosakkan kunci motor de.uwaa!!camne tah ley jadik camtuh..mybe aku pusing kuat sgt kot..isk2..melayangla duet aku nk repair..
ape lagik yg best ek 2minggu nih?
ha...aku n aini teman kak ayeshah pg autosy org mati kll(kecelakaan lalu lintas).kak ayeshah tgh koas forensik dptmen oncall mlm2..takot nk balik mlm2 sorang2 de ajakla kitorg teman.pinjam baju koas de masok ar.memule cuak gak nk masok..takot!tapi dah tgk mayat tuh cam biase jek..org kristian lelaki..banyak tatu.kepale de terhentak kot kene langgar lori sbb darah2 cume dari luka d bhgn kepala jek.lame gak dok dlm tuh.tgk seniors2 koas lain yg dberi peranan sebok measure lukalah..measure misailah..measure sume body partslah..aku pon taktau sbb ape..rasenye kat mlesia tak yah kot..ble ramai2 wat keje tuh jd lambatlahh.kire cam anthropometry gaklah (minus timbang brat badan).moral yg aku ley dpt ialah:how in an instant human can be soo lifeless..think about it.n wut more?i think im thinking n becoming more of a doctor to be!bestnye koas nanti!tak sabar!
ok...kene stadi...nxt week xm..aku baru kaver genetiks jek..getik btolla..
pada mereka yg maseh d mlesia...welcome bak!ahaks!

why?

2005-11-01T12:00:00.000-08:00

im wondering...
why is everyone changing...?i mean..at least...
i prefer them to stay the way they used to be..
rather than becoming sumone i not used to know...
are we lost?
is everyone trying to find sum security to fit..
are we unsure of our own selves?
just ignore dis posting..
just some feelings dat i need to get off my chest
people,
just stay the way u are n used to be
even if we cant be better....
we can bring out da best if we just be ourselves
cos u n me..
we're unique n beautiful in our own sweet way
thots
me

hari yg sepi

2005-10-31T15:15:00.000-08:00

sabtu
pagi: bid da bak to mlesia rombongan gudbye...bye!!
tghari:pg malioboro mall...n pasar briharjo..wuishh...pening..crowded...migrain aku..
mlm:marathon cd full house...tak sangke best gak cter nihh..hehe

ahad
pagi:dikejutkan oleh panggilan maut dari aida n tasha...deorg nk ke jakarta amik flight dr sane nk balik mlesia..pastu sebarkan kat aku gosip pasal diriku sendirik yg aku sendirik tak tau..hai??manela dpt cter nihh?..pastuh trus bgnn..
tghari till ptg:sambung marathon full house...alahi kiutnye ending...pompuan tuh serius comey gile..!!
mlm:bukak pose mkn roti jek..aku serius mls nk makan..huhu.then beribadat..hehe..mummy call tensen sbb transmission lambat..tak dgr laktuh...try to stadi baru 45 minit dah ngantok..trus tdo..

isnin ni
pagi:stadi ckit
ptg:online..hehe..ade pikri anep md no...sakinah n kak huda...
mlm:sambung stadilah kottt
sepinye diriku..ahakss

currhat

2005-10-28T12:28:00.000-07:00

haha...lamenye aku tak nulis blog...banyak sgt mende dah berlaku...antaranye....
1)speda maya kene tabrak ngan motor...depan mata aku...naseblah minor injuries..ahaks~kesimpulannye berhati2lah d jalan raya....sebenonye has pon dah due kali kene tabrak gak...aku pon tertabrak tayar belle mlm tadi..aisey..bahaye2..
2)azra kene anemia...nak tau camne nak detect anemia?tarik bwh mate tgk kelopak mate putih ke tak?kalo putih maknenye anemiclah tuh...sbenonye ramai jek org yg kurang iron dlm darah...example like our family...hehe~takleh nk derma darah
3)walamak...jumpa tokek dlm bilik air belle....takot gle...!!terjerit2 aku bgi nk gle...smpi jadi lapo..(walaopon tak tgk pon tokek tuh...)deorg ckp:gemok n sebesar sejengkal (tgn ayahlah)..takotnnye..
tataulah...wlaopon aku ni ala2 berani kononnye~tapi tgk tokek nih mmg aku tak boley...ntah...takot trauma kot berdasarkan ape yg senior2 ckap...cam huduh gel..maya kate kulit de cam buaye...apelagi~~dah ade ketakutan baru kat jogja!!tanak jumpe lagih..kitorg beramai2 tampal lobang atas dinding toilett...tanak bagi de masok
hehe~~smalam hari yg agak bahagie jugak bagi aku...2days ago mbak kiki bagitau cuti januari 9 hari jek tapi tetbe smalam anip msg ckp: "TOY, mas rokman kate kalo tak remedial blan1, cuti raye dari 7 till 23 jan..."uwaa~~ 16 hari!! YESSS!!!!tak sabo nk balik...(aku dah usha2 tiket air asia dahh)...hehe~pastuh balik kos belle plak gtau jpa dah masok scholar baru!!~!yay~dah ade duittt.....ley pg bromo!
bdak2 nih hepi giler.pastuh lepas maghrib cycle pg papa ron's pizza layan eda n azra yg dah lame kempunan nk makan pizza tapi takde duit.wlaopon aku dah kenyang tapi teman jelah deorg kasi meriah ckit.best cycle pg sane...rerupenye takler jauh sgt papa ron tuh kalo cycle.best~lalu jambatan..tgk scenery jogja waktu mlm..lampu samar2...rase thankful sgt to be alive n to have everything that has been blessed upon me...Alhamdulillah...peace be n thankful to Allah...(",)
1 thing that jogja taught me....here...u're never n will never be the most unfortunate one....
there's always sumone....sumwhere in jogja yg in worser condition than u...here they struggle n toil to stay alive...to get rezeki yg halal...panas2 bulan pose sorong trolley jual macam2.mcm semalam ade pakcik tuh jual bulu ayam,berus tandas,penyapu sorong panas2...kesian sgt...pastuh iman ngan aku berenti beli penyapu ngan berus tandas..tak kesahlah~niat nak sedekah.few things belajo kat cni...slalu membeli utk bersedekah n peluang mmg terbuke luas kat mane2 ut kite bersedekah...ramai sgt org meminta sedekah n lebey susah dari kite..kire kitorg nih taraf senang lah kat cni.pakcik tuh grateful sesangat kitorg beli kat de...berkali2 de ckp trime kasih mbak..pastu siap mintak aku tolong lagi nk uruskan anak de nak kerja kat malaysia.pastuh kalo tgk rumah deorg rase sedey sgt.rumah deorg mmg tader ape2...ade yg bilik ade lantai n papan jek..sedey sgt...sgt bersyukur hidup di bumi jogja nih..
n another thing...sedey sgt ramai muslims kat cni tak berpuase..kengkadang tuh nampak islamic (pakai tudung n berkopiah)..selambe jek makan depan org ramai tanpe segan silu..kat cni takde sesiape yg nak halang kite kalo tak puase...government takde undang2 nak monitor perkare nih pon...nantilah citer lagih pasal islam kat cni
kak huda~~officially hari last ye kat uni?mesti rindu nanti kan?waa~bestnye dah nak grad...balik mlesia dlm 30 nov..(my besday =) )..bak 4 good...
aku plak dah abis blok2 dah...sekejap sgt mase berlalu...aku rase aku skang dah bnyk berubah :dah tak seyakin n seproduktif dulue.aku rase bnyk mende yg aku nyesal tak buat blok nih..tak sungguh2 hayati pengajaran lecturer..x berusaha utk fokus..banyak putus asa n layan perasaan n tak appreciate peluang n lecturers yg best2.erm..baguslah dah sedar...jgnlah ulang lagih..yaAllah yakinkanlah aku dalam setiap langkah2 yg aku ambil~~
smalm lagu raye dah berkumandang kat our costs.terase plak kemeriahan hari raye...tetbe rindulah sgt plak kat rumah...smpi mimpi2..erm...rase nk ajek aKU beli tiket balik mlesia last minet nih..uwaa...flight deorg sok pagi kol 9...aku kirim brg kat atikah dak pasir gudang utk family bak home ;)..
icha plak ajak aku join ngobrol2 ngan peace generation..kire aku diajak berdiskusi in a conference utk majlis peace generation nih...uik...aku punye indonesian language bkannye fluent sgt..dahlah dah tak brape berkeyakinan skang nih..ermm..sental jeklah..12hb nih..
SLAMAT HARI RAYA korang semue...
SALAM MAAF ZAHIR BATIN...dr aku kat jogja nihhh ;)
ingat2lah aku yg jauh nih yerrr....

im soo lethargic..!!

2005-10-19T13:16:00.000-07:00

I will come to you

When u have no light to guide you and no one to walk beside u..
i will come to u..

When the night is dark and stormy..
u wont have to reach out for me..
i Will come to u..

..teringat lagu hanson yg populer dulu2...teringat gak musim2 hujan nih...iman nye siren basikal bunyi time hujan2 kol 12am..sume org dah tdo...lagu tuh played non stop..pastu me has n maya gathered try putuskan wayar siren tuh..(struggle...)aku dah give up..bawak tukul suruh iman pecahkan jek siren tuh..
teringat gak iman bagi me a small motivation book on dreams..
iman yg comel...
ptg nih all mlesian berbuka ngan duta mlesia kat audit medic faculty...yeah~mkn free lagih!!

sabtu lepas..

2005-10-17T22:45:00.000-07:00

sabtu lepas sgt best...sbb:
1)ambik gambo batch...erk..sbenonye takler best sgt..bengang pon ade sbb kene tg 2 jam 4 everyone to arrive...tapi comel jugaklah sbb sume org ngengade buat gaye chomel..huhu...
2)second....balik jalan kaki online kejap kat library uni...chat ngan kak huda!!seriously im glad dat i talked to u...u helped me resolve my heart thinking n mind...tapi blk bilik tuh mmg serius pnat gle...n PENING!!sbb terpakse sort out my thinking balik..hehe...tido...
3)bgn2..trus pg berbuke kat umah umno..ni pon best gak sbb rmai senior2 pompuan koas ade...cte pengalaman2 deorg n plan nk wat bedside teachingg..yeahh..
4)part plg best...lpas mandi mummy called!!!gayut lame~40 minutes...dah lame xborak ngan mummy...mummy cter husna dah pandai ckp lailahaillallah bile man n ecad gaduhh(dgn nada baby2)n husna pon dah pndai ckp ngengade jek...auww..kiut..tmah plak br amik pekse mrsm pagi tuh..de kate susah gle..biase ak tuhh

hehe ahad pon best gak karena:
1)pg taruna jumpe kak aishah abg hafiz yg aku dh lame tak jumpe!!rindunye...chomeynye de..plg best tuh de ajak aku teman de dr 29.12 cuti nanti abg hafiz nk pg luar bandar(amende tah name de)...
hehe...tak sabo...bestnye..
#kak aishah cumell...
#kak aishah cumell
#kak aishah chumell..
plg penting kak aishah mcm kak huda....

andai ini ramadhan terakhir

2005-10-15T12:30:00.000-07:00

Andai Ini Ramadhan Terakhir

wahai dikau...renunglah engkau akan nasib diri
wahai qalbu...sedarkah engkau akan gerak hati
wahai aqal...terfikirkah engkau akan apa yangbakal terjadi
andai ini merupakan Ramadhan yang terakhir kali
buatmu sekujur jasad yang bakal berlalu pergi
tatkala usia bernoktah di penghujung kehidupanduniawi
pabila tiba saat tepat seperti yang dijanji Ilahi
kematian...adalah sesuatu yang pasti

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu siangnya engkau sibuk berzikir
biarpun anak tekak kering kehausan air
tentu engkau tak akan jemu melagukan syair rindu
mendayu..merayu...kepada-NYA Tuhan yang satu

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu solatmu kau kerjakan di awal waktu
solat yang dikerjai...sungguh khusyuk lagi tawadhu'
tubuh, minda, dan qalbu...bersatu memperhamba diri
mengadap Rabbul Jalil... menangisi kecurangan janj
"innasolati wanusuki wamahyaya wamamatilillahirabbil 'alamin"[sesungguhnya solatku, ibadahku, hidupku, danmatiku...kuserahkan hanya kepada Allah Tuhan seru sekelianalam]

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tidak akan kau persiakan walau sesaat yang berlalu
setiap masa tak akan dipersia begitu saja
di setiap kesempatan juga masa yang terluang
alunan Al-Quran bakal kau dendang...bakal kausyairkan

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhirtentu malammu engkau sibukkan dengan pesta-pestaanberterawih...berqiamullail...bertahajjud...mengadu...merintih...meminta belas kasih
"sesungguhnya aku tidak layak untuk ke syurga-MUtapi...aku juga tidak sanggup untuk ke neraka-MU"oleh itu duhai Ilahi...kasihanilah daku hamba-MU ini

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhirtentu dirimu tak akan melupai mereka yang tersayang
ayuh ke mari kita meriahkan Ramadhan
kita buru...kita cari...suatu malam idaman
yang lebih berkat dari seribu bulan

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu engkau bakal bersedia batin dan zahirmempersiap diri...rohani dan jasmani
menanti-nanti jemputan Izrail
di kiri dan kanan ...lorong-lorong redha Ar-Rahman

duhai Ilahi...
andai ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kami
jadikanlah ia Ramadhan paling bererti...palingberseri...menerangi kegelapan hati-hati kami
menyuluhi diri ke jalan menuju redha serta kasihsayang mu Ya Ilahi
semoga bakal mewarnai kehidupan kami di sana nanti

namun saudara...tak akan ada manusia yang bakal mengetahui
samada Ramadhan ini merupakan yang terakhir kali
hanya yang termampu bagi seorang hamba ituberusaha...bersedia...meminta belas-NYAandai benar ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kita

we read we understand n we act
may Allah gives his hidayaah to us all..
insyaAllah...

haha

2005-10-13T10:40:00.000-07:00

hey..im in da midst of poring da harper's biochem...i shall say whoa...in harper's every little thing seems to b damn complex...in just a short passage u can find a neverending unknown scientific terms...yoo..those chem substances...soo complicated...i wonder how da writer managed to compile all those things..understood and memorize dem..luckily i didnt venture into chemical engineering...
ahaks....
it has been raining these few days...n cencurut starting to appear at our kos' compounds...scaryyy

yaAllah

2005-10-11T10:18:00.000-07:00

"takkan gelisah org yg beriman akan berkurangnya pahala n bertambahnya dosa"
(surah Al-Jin)
...sbb de beribadah ikhlas kerana Allah...

happy

2005-10-10T12:16:00.000-07:00

hehehe~br lepas mini test..tak sesia aku stadi memaen..huhu..bnyk gle aku hentam tadik..
uik..bkannye aku tanak stadi tp bebulan pose nih rase cm lemah sgt..asyik nk tdo ajek..isk2..
harga bbm naik*(bahan bakar mentah)..sume org tau psl isu nih..fenomena worlwide kan..cume ere in indonesia..impak de terase bangat..bayangkan harga fuel naik 87%..yup...banyak gle..
mujurlah kat cni main transport aku adalah s.p.e.d.a...pg mirota naik speda..pg karita naik speda..pg papa ron naik speda..pg klas naik speda..pg pasar naik speda..pg jakal(aerobik..hihihi)naik speda...CUME..
pg taruna tak naik speda..
balik mlesia pon lagilah TAK NAIK speda...
isk2..smalam pg taruna..naik angkut..tambang asal 1 ribu rupiah..tapi skang dah naik 2 ribu rupiah..
iman:mahalnye pak...(de ingat pakcik tuh tipu ktorg..lupe harge bbm dah naik..duhh)
..series mahal harge minyak skang...dr 7 ribu tuang minyak jadi 15 ribu...bayangkan lebeh dr 100% increase...kesian for mlesian yg naik motor tuh..
tu br mlesian jek..yg indonesian...yg miskin2...kesian..dlm berite dgr org kampung miskin2 dah gune kayu api utk masak...mmglah org2 miskin dpt subsidi..tp bape sgtlah...
tapi masalah utama aku ialah: aku nak balik raye aji nih tapi tak beli tiket lagi dan menurut totin harge flight tiket naik gile2!!!....
argh..tensi2..camne aku nk balik nih??uwaa....
harap bersabolah cik toy...
smalam dak2 intec g berbuke ngan tutor deorang..dr eddy..de kate gaji de 6oorm jek...
itu dr senior....dr2 mude yg baru keje lagilahhh ckit gle gaji....itu baru dr...belom yg keje2 lain lagih...
kesimpulannye...:bersyukurlah berada di malaysia..TANAH AIRKUU..TERCHENTA...muahahah(patriotik,,,patriotik)
sabtu lepas masak nasi lemak beramai2...walaupon sambal de tak sesedap sambal mak yg sedap giler tuhh tapi boleylah aku tetap balun banyak gle makan...(dah namenye monster!!!)
btoll arr cakap totin dlm blog de..(bleylah rujuk postings dlm blog de yg lalu)...dok cni asyik nak makan jek...blajo nak munch...lunch ngan dinner pon mmgla balun nasi banyak2...tader makan mee..ke laksa..mane ade..nasi semate..nasi goreng....nasi berlauk..nasi padang dan sebagainye...herk...dulu aku kat ktt dinner makan cereal jek tau tak??gle ar...dah tader eating control lagik langsung..(huhu..sia2 jek aku slalu bersukan kat ktt dulue =P)
agh...ni yg nak mengadu nih...rindu sgt2 ngan laksa penang mummy....mummy..oh mummy..poskanlah laksa penangmu oh ibukuuuu

assalammualaikumm..

2005-10-03T12:15:00.000-07:00

yeah..ramadhan is coming..tomorrow is the day...my headache has ceased..actually im feeling a bit confused rite now..to be or not to be..yeah..just be it...
erp..wut happened yesterday?after i logged off from da cc?i went to the gerai sbelah pojok motor n ordered a damn really2 spicy mee goreng which i decided to eat there to accompany my newly made fren in da gerai, rina..we talked while eating..and it felt nice talking to a newly found stranger..balik bilik..ramai plak org misscal..aik..peliknye..slalunye tak berbunyi..yelah..kat indon ni aku kerepot..constantly tader krdeit..org pon dh giveup msg aku..amyriah n aida bg msg..argh..windu deorang..
as i've said before..ive been missing home.n my frens...smbl stady free radical tetbe rase cam sunyi sgt..sepi gle...apsal plak nih?syahdu gle..i told myself..kene jadi kuat..jgn givup...kite takkan sepi kalo kite pin kan all our hopes to Allah..sbb de yg bagi kaseh syg...the ULTIMATE one..kalo dah cukup kaseh syg Allah..kte dah tak rase nk dambakan kaseh syg manusie..sbb kaseh Allah tuh complete...
i've realized dat im starting to feel or wannabe a lone ranger..i guess that's wut medicine is supposed to be dong to u..aint it?haha...
pg tadi b4 clas pg bilik che pah...mate de bengkak..aik..nape nih??de nangis gak..psl rindu umah gak...laaarrr..(pdhal ayah de br jek dtg jum lepas..kiki)...
che' pah ur not alone...hoihahe..
kesimpulannye kalo kekadg kte rase stupid..nk giveup sdey..ingatlah..msti punye sumwere ade org rase cmtuh gak cume kite tak tau...
cling on to our inner strength sbb its sumwere der..cume kite kn rediscover it bak..
i wanna focus..
i wanna love knowledges..
tanak putus asa..
_aku yg dulunye rs kuat tp skang dah lemah ckit tp nak jd kuat balek_

alone~

2005-10-02T17:27:00.000-07:00

kat cc teknik (engin) faculty sensorg..buke frensyer nk wish payat besday sbenonye..sian de..aku nih constantly tader kreditt..nak berjimat..nk save..nk balek raye aji nih..insyaAllah..tak sabar rasenye...ntah aku dah mereng..rase rindu tahap borobudur punye kat umah..rindu masakan mak..rindu masak kat dapor..rindu kacau timah..rindu cium husna..rinda senyuman mishad n ayah rindu marah man..isk2..syahdunye rase..sebakk..pagi2 td aku bgn tdo rase pening yg amat sgt kat pale belah kanan my right temporal lobe..adakah sbb terlalu stress?mlm tadi aku tdo awal gle..kol 9.30pm..after mkn magi lepas balek dr basketball game lwn gals 1st yer medic reguler..aku main 1st half jek..bengang sbb warit asyik foulkan aku jek pdhal sume org cam pelik rase cm taderla ganas sgt n taderla obvious sgt aku tersentuh dak baju pink(shooter yg bajet terer n kefoulan pd team ktorg tuh berterusan smpila abis game..sume org tak puas ati.,.aku tak paham pelik gle padahal yg konpim obvious gle kak aliyah damn bnyk kali gile kene impit tak dpt rebound pon..tatauler aku aku saspek si warit tuh balak dak pki baju pink tuh kot pantang dak tuh kene sentuh msti foul punye..ish*&^$&&!!tak puas ati2..laktuh dahle main 3 half jek tader ms tambahan..2nd half tuh kak aliyah kejo point so kitorg leading..so da strategi is just to maintain point n kuatkan defend smpi game abis tapi mungkin dah takdir Allah kak lin d luar sedar telah tersumbatkan gol kat gol opponent..masyaAllah..mmg tader rezki..so in da end deorg mng by one point..rasenye kalo ade lagi one half boleh kejo tapi yela..tader rezki kot..lpas raye ade lagi 3 game..pose break..tp aku rase kalo ade anugrah cheerleader terbaek aku ley mnang kot (yakin!!)..memule pening pg tadi decided tanak pg paso ahad (pasar pagi) tapi last2 pg jugak temankan azra yg teringin nk makan pisang aroma..konon2 nk save duit tapi last2 tergode gak...blikan husna baju batik kiut 10ribu= rm4..man n ecad topi 20 ribu dpt due(lawa design de...mcm2 merek=brand yg ciplak tapi nmpak ori2 gile)..n timahnye baju punjabi kaler merah menyale (hehehe) 5o ribu=rm 20..wuish mmg best gle ar pasar pagi nih...bnyk sgt gerai2..lesehan (warung tapi makan atas tikar kat lantai)..mcm2 fud ader...tempura(stick ikan tenggiri)..kerepek..nasi kuning..susu lembu yg best gle haha..mcm2 lagilah..harge takyah cakap mmang murah gile..compare ngan mlesia..erm apelagih...baju2 punjabi 150 ribu lelawa..(dlm rm 60)..khat..dlm rm8...quran tafsir yg cantik n agak besar (dlm rm16)..mcm2ler ade..pasar nih along ugm kampus..banyak sgt pengamin..pengamin tuh org yg main muzik@nyanyi ke..dtg kat kite mintak kite bayo de sumtimes main gitar..gamelan ker..saxophone yg best pon ader!!..n old folks yg mintak sedekah..kesian...ade kerete kude..(tp aku tak penah naiklar)..kekadang ader reformasi contonye mase indon nk legalise kan abortion arituh..yg aku notice org2 indon nih sume daring2 n outspoken..kagum2..tak kirela pompuan ker..dak2 kecik ker..esp golongan2 terpelajar delah..n deorg suke blajo..jarang nk jumpe doktor biase usually depa kan further lagih...n deorg pon kreatip..brg2 deorg jual sume kreatif2 susah ar nk jumpe yg design cikai2 even sticker2 de...even harge murah..
erm teringat plak ari jum lpas ktorg pg jogja moviebox..sewa satu tempat tuh dlm 20 org sume batchmates kitorg..bayo 10ribu=rm 4..oklah tmpat tuh..selesa..kerusi de sofa yg sgt selesa...jum horror night so kitorg tgk skeleton key...best gak ar..cte tuh unpredicteble..sume sangkaan aku meleset..psycho thriller btol ar..huhu..japg nk bli mee goreng lapo nih..tghari tade aku mkn junk food jek ngengarot..
okelah..eppy belated 20th besday to mr aazimin n cik baya rashidahhh(mis u gle!!)...gumbire2 slalooo...
n gudlak to my dearest sista fatimah azzahra for pmr yg stat esok!!(aku plak yg tompang cuakkk)...okesss..
nk StadIII!!...nk stadi memolekkkk!!

arghhh

2005-09-27T13:20:00.000-07:00

harini gile tader mood pedal tercabut skru hilanggg..arghh..nak repair speda..n tutorial aku jadi scriber yg tak brape bermaye..huhu~eh..lupe nk britahu..skang aku dah jadi international student program basketball player.. acehh..jgn tak caye..last saturday kitorg (inter) lwn akak2 medic 4th yer reguler(indonesians) menang 8-6..muahaha~wlaupon tak jauh beze tapi cukuppuas ati sbb aku yg tak penah2 main basket just gune skillnetbal jek mmpu mmberi sumbangan dgn main 2halfs dr 4 halfsgame tuh...kitorg main tuko2player..haha..heppy gile kitorg..akak2 senior yg gtau tak penah kalahkan deorg sbb depa tuh juara bertahan previous yers..mmuahaha~rase cm lucky jekk..takpe2..bnyk lagi ley improve..plg penting..besh2 main basket tader rules..nk blajo dribble gle2 n shoot bolaa..huahua..lagi 5 more games to go n sok ade prakttiss..aku tgh mncari mood utk lbey rajen studies..gile bnyk kene kaver..ngan pretest yg asyik memanjang jek..n aku yg asik rs nk berhibernasi constantly.. kat cni gak ade usrah every friday..principalde pon cm tutorial problem based learning kte bicarakan isu2 yg dibentangkan..stat nxt week..spt biase every tuesday we all akan pg taruna persanteran..blajo tafsirr..wey bulan pose dh dekat ahh..pastu raye..tak balik rumahhh..uwaa~

long time no writinggg

2005-09-26T08:00:00.000-07:00

lots of progress in me all these while....yesterday we went to panti asuhan..rumah anak yatim..i got a new haircut...i did bekam,..hihihi..n now know how to bekam people..my bike keep giving me headache..the ram was tabraked by a gate..act i tabraked the gate..hehehe~then my pedal plak tercabut..hish2..mmg 18sg aku nihh...

kak ayeshah...

2005-09-12T11:15:00.000-07:00

kak ayeshah lulus osce 98%..yeahh..sendowoquek tompang gembire...(sendowo=kos akue)..(quek=anak2 itek 11 ekor @penghuni2 kos sendowo (aku,maya,aini,belle,tika,azra,iman,che'pah,ida,kepam,has)..yeye...celebrate kat papa rons pizza..bayo 12 ribu(dlm rm5) ley mkn pizza seberape bnyk yg nak sbb ade promo smp dec..best gle ar..aku mkn pza bnyk gle 7 keping smpai..huhu..sedap gak piza de..
kak ayeshah kakak kesygn sendowoquek..sgtlah baek n supportive..congrats!!n eppi masok coas (dokter mude nk masok praktikal)..huhu..sedey akue..xm tentamen aku foul tadi..bnyk kuar muscle n joint bnyk aku x dpt sbb aku xbace joint n muscle yg tetbe jek bnyk gle kuar sbb soklan de bnyk kuar mende2 tuh..almost 20..uwaa...sgt menyesalo..lpas ni nk stadi memolekkk...sume bende..yaAllah bgla aku kerajinan...jgn bg giveup..amik pngajaran..naseble mende tuh 5% jerk account 4..huhu..

fridat at lastt!!

2005-09-09T12:50:00.000-07:00

haha..we've got pre anthem anatomy test dis morning..now i know how the test goes..it's quite fun (only if u know da answers~)but tulah now i know wut to look forward to n mmg bebetul kene revise all da structures..huahua..just realized dat my room skang dah makin bnyk semut2 merayap..dulu2 ms awal2 dtg tader pon sbarang hidupan dlm bilek aku..semut dh pndai nk berjinak2 ngan bilek aku..depan kos kitorg ade anjing..yg pelik tuh anjing2 kt cni mesra2 tak garang bak kate azra pasif..so kitorg alhamdulillahla bley jejaln sbelah anjing2 tuh dgn hati yg tenang..ehh..nak blah ah..nanti ar tulis bebnyk ckit..huhu..weeken ni kn pulun stadi ar..nk xm...huhu

ello derr...

2005-09-07T13:25:00.000-07:00

i must make a remedial for wut i've been writing yesterday..making others worry bout such nonsense..its normal to have downturns in life moments..but if u have any problems,remember to return to ur fitrah..Allah n reflect on urselves n ur ibadahs to see if der is any chinks for u to be diverted from happiness...i did that n im glad im feeling damn a lot2 more better!!sumtimes Allah make us feel dat way for us to reflect on ourselves and atone ourselves from our dose2 n silap yg sedar @tak sedar so we wont be faraway from him..itu tandnya Allah syg kat kite..went to madrasah taruna yesterday n it sure helped me a lot..dearie..got to tell xms are coming n i've got to b serious wif my xms preparation seeing my non bumi frens seem to know a whole lot more better than me during da anatomy clas dis mor.we had to analyse cadiavar(how dya spell dis corpse thingy?)to intro us to parts of the bodies..gosh osteo..need lotsa memorizing n im only done with the cranium?huhu..borrowed skulls from kak mar which we discussed together n during nite time we all leave the skulls outside our rooms..kat koridor..takot punye pasal!!haha..herm hari2 ngantok..lpas maghrib jek mate dah berat..pnatlah..jadual hectic sbb ktorg lmbt 2 mg then assignment lg ngan baru nk adapt to uni life after dah lame cuti..yaAllah bglah kekuatan..kembalikanla smangat membare ku yg dulu2 itu..IAllah..
dearie sista hudanesz...eppy 22nd besday..wanna tell u how deep i love n adores u..may Allah guides us both to the right path alwiz n do pray for me..ur just the best sister any human being could ever had..iAllah Allah will grant u happiness n blessing alwiz..
once again..luv ya dearie sis...thanks for staying wif me thru life's thick n thin..

young doc

2005-09-06T09:00:00.000-07:00

i have been having this kinda uncomfortable feeling inside me..each time i open my eyes..every morning..n why am i writing dis??i hope dat dis feeling would just disappear..just vanish..go away..cos it bothers me a lot..it pains me..like im living in a faraway deserted remote place..where no one could reach..i just feel it..i cant ignore it..its really bothersome..i used to have such feelings in da past but i was in control..i could make it go away with a few tickle of laughs..but now..even laughs could not hinders me from being reminded of dat sorrowful feelings..i dunno why..im just no longer a master to my own self n soul..once again..im writing in da hope dat it will go away..never invade me again..it will go away...for wut is life with fear..wut is life without real true joy..n i shuld n realy must remind myself..that my life is complete..nothing is wrong with it..n i shuld b grateful for wut i have....

15 minutes

2005-09-05T08:00:00.000-07:00

15 minutes b4 my class..i'd better hurry..gotta tell u dat all of us got ourselves a new bike...11 0f us..da sendowoquek..hahaha..last saturday..it costed us 150$..so yesterday us merasmikan da new bike by going to da restoran yg ekslusif n mahal..n today beramai-ramai ke faculty konvoi berbike..smpi2..dikecam oleh abg2 senior..last sat gak pagi2 aku has n iman ikut kak aishah g klas aerobik n body language..best gak..then balik kos walk for an hour..jauh gakk..on sunday pagi2 kak aishah(kakak itik) bwk kitorg pg pasar pagi..murah2 brg de n bnyk choice..best gak..ramai gle org..then at 10 pg umah kak aishah isteri abg hafiz..umo de br 24..kawin umo 22 due2 doc kak aishah undergrad from ireland....so de ikut abg hafiz ere..he's completing his studies in 4 months time...abg hafiz ketue uppimi..organisasi islam stdnt mlesia kat cni..deorg sweet gle..bercinte cara islam..mane main dating2..istikharah 7 bln tuh kak aishah nk terime abg hafiz..erm..lagi satu..pasal tokek..haha..tau tak tokek tuh ape?cicak..bkan cicakla..ala2 biawak..tapi bley lekat kt dinding...then suke kuarkan bunyi tokk...kek..tu yg dipanggil tokek..pastu ley gigit org smpi darah..merbahaya..eh..aku kan skang..slalu rase tak selesa in public..cm tak tenang..apehal ntah..rase cam dah jadi penakot n tak konpden..ya Allah..kembalikanla ketenangan n kebugaran hatiku ini...insyaAllah...

2005-09-01T10:00:00.000-07:00

dis eve we'll have yasinan at rumah umno in jakal.so im sure gonan be xtra tired n lethargic.i've decided not to return home in malaysia during raya.erm..im fasting today..after dis got skills lab..microscope..then dis eve tutorial:congenital idiot state..last weeken was damn stressful n tough the mlaysian ospek..by da way ospek stands for orientasi siswa perkenalan kampus..ktorg kene jemur for hours dgn hanya pakai stoking n baju kurung..n kene stare kat matahari..kene tengking2 kene pumping..kene marching..jogging..boley dikatakan sume org kene tengking ar..senior2 blakon jadi ganas..aku kene terok gak jum tuh..tapi best gak kenal ngan ramai senior2 gals yg islamik n bebaek..dahle rmai mleysian yg cun2..cumel jekk..laktuh pagi ade ospek faculty pon kene marah2 gak..nk gugur jantung aku asik kene marah jekk..plg best part demonstrasi turunkan harga obat..kt cni mmg bnyk demo..ari merdeka de pon ade org wat demo..kire ospek every year mmg akan wat demo..dak2 junior berarak smp luar kampus smbil nyanyi lagu2 smangat...then leader demo bg ucapan smangat gle...best ar gak...pngalaman baru wlaupon panas..n on tuesday aku pg madrasah taruna..persanteran..ikut senior blajo tafsir n hadits..madrasah tu simple jekkk..atap n dinding nipah tapi bersih..mmg insaplah..ustaz ngan ustazah tuh tak kenekan caj pon kat stdnt yg blaja n stay kat situh..org2 kat jogja nih mmg ramah2..ikhlas..baek gle..suke mnolong n suke senyum..so..so far so gud for me...

heyy!!!

2005-08-25T14:35:00.000-07:00

im sure today im gonna dead beat tired..i havent finished my ospecs attributes..let's see..medical journals..summary..essays..n dis eve have to get photos..goin' to jln kaliurang.rite now im so lethargic n tired..huhu..lack of sleep..im sure im gonna be even more a deadpant after dis weeken..we have orient faculty n mlaysian students as well...will be sleeping over in da madrasah..for da weekens..hv to take senior's signature 60 of dem..huhu..here seniority is realy strong..scary..we realy2 have to please dem..i mean tegor dem..but wif their assumption to us all jpa scholars..of course dat we are budak pandai yg kerek.."konon2"..herm..wuteverla..but most of da seniors are nice..i mean..really2 nice..kinda like dem..
n today we had lectures bout academic writing..kinda njoyed it..n interviewed dr suryadi,my anatomy lecturer..haha..cute..i'm fasting today which is okay cos breaking fast is at 5.45..so no worriess..here is dat u're dehydrating without u realizing it..bcos u neva sweat ere..the night is also cold..practically i don use fan at all dailyly..hehe..act im having clss rite now..literary searching..hehe..da intec student arrived last monday..10 of dem..iman..ida..kepam..atiqa..che' pah..pei hsia..aziz..kudin..yek n anep..welcome guys~key me nk pray zuhurr..chiaoww..

2005-08-16T16:29:00.000-07:00

im in ugm com lab..finally im in yogyakarta..my new life had begun...
yogyakarta..a permai peaceful city..sort of like kedah i think..the weather is nice..it's got sunshine yet the temperature is just moderate..kinda cold..prob it's da cold season..but due to da senior wen it's the hot season,it's really is damn hot.we just moved in to our hostel yesterday eve.a row of newly built single storey rooms.one individual per room wif an attached bathroom n a newly furnished bed cupboard n study table.so i kinda like da hostel xcept got sume dogs near the vicinity as we have to walk to our faculty around 15 minutes walk.our faculty...a new building..surrounding really permai..quite a small building but a cosy one so particularly we'll get to noe everione soon.n the internet service is wireless so we get to surf anytime anywer inside the buildings..better to hv a laptop soon.the students too seem nice n funny..plenty mlesian students..kinda like the lecturers too..though not too fluent but seem knowledgeable wise n very experienced.n most docs dat handle our group discussions are fresh grads doc dat seems quite cool.haha.kinda like their style.
yesterday went shopping at mirota.the store was small yet damn packed.but the things are quite cheap.ha n da kfc dun have mash potatoes n coleslaw instead being replaced wif RICE..yeah..i said it..RICE..lawok ar..n the sauce tastes terrible..tak sedap..too saltyy..haha..
i'll write more later..cos i dun have mood as im hungry..didnt eat from dis morning..ngeh2..
n here it's one hour early than mleysia.we start clas at 7am. 6pm dah damn dark like 8pm.waktu sholat pon early n hour from mlaysia..keylah..
dis is my new num +6281548474900
owh..n to my dearie frens..thanks a heap guys for sending me off at da airport!!terharu~huhuhu..ish2..tak sangke rmai plak yg nk anto.ngkorang mmg..tak gtau awal2..buat surprise btol!!hehehe~thanks again korang..sori tak dpt beri layanan yg baek cos mase mencemburui kite.hehe.really appreciate it =]

2005-08-05T23:00:00.000-07:00

rite now im in utm cc..thehehe..waiting for ami n obie to finish their silat practice..lyza plak bz wif her lab..cannot see me tonite neither tomoroe..herm laterla jmp ko..yela..dak 3rd yer chem engin..huhu.marlia plak kuar ngan balak de n da gang.huh,smp ati ko!hehehe~
i think rachel leigh cook is da cutest gal in holly wood..de sgt2 chumelll!!smlm tgk de in punk'd encore..cutie gilerr!!
key r..eppy 20th besday to najihah n didi!!
may u guys prosper..mmuahh!!

todayy

2005-08-02T23:00:00.000-07:00

i was having my class wif a standard 3 n 4 student when suddenly husna started screaming..well she alwiz does dat so i just ignored her..but all of a sudden she came out of the front room sounding petrified n terrified..blood spurting massively from her palms..i was shocked!!turned out i was too scared to find the cause of her injury fearing dat she had put her fingers into the standing fan (my most fearsome nitemare)..so i hollered for mum...i was scared!!turned out dat she act played with a blade..(wer did she ever get that?whoever left it laying around just like dat..ughh..)..this is act husna's 2nd biggest accident of her 2 n half yer life span..
the first encounter was wen she was 1 yer old..she act celupped her palm (again!) into a hot boiling maggi Man put on da floor.her hand was scalded baddlyy!!scary dude~huh.she looked like an alienated kid.looks like im not ready at least yet to be a doctor..it sure did scare the hell out of me..she's such a small kid..ugh..i so cannot be a pediatrician~

erm..by da way..im getting better n better at cooking..can u believe it?i can actually..'really really' cooks!u name it!(hehehe~)
i guess all these while i was just not confident to cook..cos i was clueless..now i know..only a few days spent at the kitchen..thru observation..u can do it! n even better than mom's (hehe...perasan seyy)..
but kinda true..i did it my own way wif mum's help.. n it just tastes better!cant believe dat da time of njoying cooking for me has finally come..after much waiting n anticipation..gladly now i find cooking as fulfilling..mind relaxing n creativity testing~hehe..lelebey plak aku nih..
tomorow our menu is laksa penang n pau..hehehe..kak huda jgn jeless~

oh...i forgot..sis hudanesz..u can view my latest pic at my fotopage..taken at recent psycho camp..my frens..ur welcome to view too!n act my comp cannot display my tagboard enimore..so i no longer can celoteh or view da tagboard..my comp is bugged..:(

marlia my best buddy since high skul called me just now..thinking of spending my weeken in utm to visit my frens:marlia(of course!)..lyza..ami..obie..diana..tka..nadiah..hehe

owh..anip just messaged me..(he asks me to pass da msg)to all my classmate(ALU1) going to gajah mada our flight is insyaAllah confirmed on da 14 august at 1.30pm..so usually have to be there 3hours earlier..mayb around 10.30am.hopefully my frens..let us pray that our alevel results exceeds the cutoff 12 points..huhu..insyaAllah...

madah Abdul Ghani seorang penyair sufi tentang cinta:

Ya Allah…Ya Rahman…Ya Rahim…
Allah Rabbi aku minta izin
Bila suatu saat aku jatuh cinta
Jangan biarkan cintaku untuk-Mu berkurang
Hingga membuatkanku lalai akan adanya Engkau
Allahu Rabbi aku punya pinta
Bila suatu saat aku jatuh cinta
Penuhilah hatiku dengan bilangan cinta-Mu yang tidak terbatas
Biar rasaku pada-Mu tetap utuh
Allah Rabbi
Izinkan bila suatu saat aku jatuh hati
Pertemukanlah kami
Berikanlah kami kesempatan untuk lebih mendekati cinta-Mu
Allah Rabbi
Pintaku yang terakhir adalah seandainya aku jatuh hati
Jangan pernah kau palingkan wajah-Mu dariku
Anugerahkanlah aku cinta-Mu
Cinta yang tak pernah pupus oleh waktu.
insyaAllah....

thanks to sis hudanesz for seindah mawar berduri....it touched me deeply..moga2 Allah bagi kita petunjuk utk slalu dekat padanya n saling ingat mengingati sesama kita..love u sis for life..

bak home againn

2005-07-30T10:13:00.000-07:00

just finished fixing jemput2 n coffee for breakfast.returned from kl yesterday arriving at 7pm.i was damn tired.i slept all da way from kl to jb soundly.i dunno why.psycho camp was sempoi n damn lepak.well.i was damn exhausted maybe moving to and fro carrying big bags.i slept at 1am last nite and woke up around 9am wif a tummyache.arghh.n I am still tired.

Wednesday was meeting wif jpa at putrajaya.me n fatin missed da 7am ktt bus n had to take the taxi which costs us 40$.it sure was a lesson for me not to be tardy or unaware ever again.hopefully!jpa gave us allowance for 3 months.which was so little.huhu.minus the lodging we'll get only 280$ for our monthly expenses.even in ktt we got 350$.herm.pak long said it was enough considering the lower costs of living in yogjakarta.maybe.eniwey our agent told us dat each person is entitled to a bedroom wif an attached bedroom.sounds okay!n we got free reference books from our agent as presents without any cut from our annual book allowance:histology,physiology,biochem,medical dictionary n 3 volumes of anatomy.cewl!oh.and we’ll b flying insyaAllah on dis 14 august in da morning as da alevel result is released on 9.8.scary!huhu.n after da jpa meeting,us: me,maya,fatin,aini,tasha,nadia n aida went to alamanda.the mega sale had started.heheh..

went to psycho camp on Thursday by ktt bus.huhu.rashid was elected da masterg and me as expected became da missg (well rashid was my prez n i was da vice bak in ktt).we had morning discussion sessions with our facis in groups bout knowing u,knowing me and things i value most.my group had to combine wif another grup as our faci could not came.okeylahh.in da eve we were asked to write letters to our parents which they claim will be sent to our parents once we've fled to our respective countries.yelahtuh.well.i wrote the letter in english wholeheartedly wif emotions pouring every single thing i've alwiz wanted to tell from da bottom of my heart.well..im not a good daughter.so as i wrote it sum tears welled in my eyes.huahua.from 5 to 6 me n da gals went swimming in da pools.yeehaaa..hehe.klakar.we were all clustered only on da shallow part.keke.penakut.
nite time we're let free to ourselves after da jpa officer mr azman came for question answer sessions.muahaha.played carrom but gave up after realising dat i really had lost my jentik2 talent.

on Friday me lepak2 on da gym n at 10 was da individual counselling session based on our psycho test result we did earlier.herm.it was not satisfying cos it was not really a heart to heart discussion.well my fasi just showed up dat morning so she didnt really know us.so on average..da camp was inorganized n not so beneficial...pity those who came all da way from sarawak n kelantan.but credit should be given to the air conditioned dormitory which caused us to always want to slump on our bed wrapped with blankets like a bunch of hobbits despite absorbing our moisture leaving us wif parched lips n da catering which was kinda delicious n well.. fulfilling.we ate n ate.

pored a bit into alia's half blood prince harry porter's book.but ika actually ter revealed the ending to me n kennok which was soo unexpected n dumbstrucking n unacceptable that made me gave up on reading da book.at least for da moment.sum time during da camp irazi forwarded a message dat amin my ex maahad skulmate was invoved in an accident n he suffered a broken limb n now in a coma.yaAllah..how did that ever happened?i wonder how he is rite now...friends ..let us pray for him to recuperate.insyaAllahh...

2 weeks more my life is totally gonna change..!i'll be on my own n i could feel 40 kinds of sadness enveloping me.i dunno wut to expect..n i started to feel dat i actually love my frens :tasha.. ika(they're going to padjajaran..we're separated) n suddenly i hope dat i could see them smile again.to admit it..im gonna miss dem..all..dilla bro..anor..kennok..ipah..atin..wanie..shariza my rumet..penutie..da india bound students.herm.hopefully they’re sending us at da airport so i'll get to see them again..
i have to buy a suit for flying n do my 2nd hepb vaccin jab.

long time no see aa...

2005-07-26T02:50:00.000-07:00

just finished packing for things to bring along to kl tomoroe.jpa wanna see us on wed.heard dat its bout da indonesian bound lodging briefing n to pay us our allowance.hopefully.im seriously broke at da mo'.huhu.then we gonna have psycho camp Thursday till Friday at kompleks sukan selayang,gombak.alipah beriye ajak me play netbal nanti.yeAh.probably we’ll coax everyone to play.hopefully.miss playing netball n EXERCISING!i've been a lazy bum at home.nak aerobik ckit pon skejap jek dah giveup.huahua.mane pg smangat atletkoo dulu ituh..been eating n eating.i know my cheeks are bulging nowadays.

most of my frens r looking forward for da camp saying they're bored at homes.well..to b honest i almost forgot to b bored wif 4 adeks hovering me.tmah yg dailyly constantly needs motivation to study well n compete! for her upcoming pmr.but i can see her improvementlah since i've been around.insyaAllah i think she can do it.biaselah skolah biase..kurang desire nk compete.she's like malay 1st in her class.but i keep telling her not good enuf.she sleeps a lot!compared to people yg stay in hostels..stay up memanjang kan.takde istilah stayup dlm kamus hidop de.balek skolah pon mesti tdo.herm..harap2lah..bought her mrsm form..then she really damn need to work xtra hard!
ha..n husna..after recuperating from her last fever makin chubby n ever cheerful..wut can i say..always terhibur ngan keletah cumel de.mcm2 ada!dahla skang pndai curik ikan bilis dr peti ais then mkn mentah2..iyeww..gross baby..

after teaching tuition to a bunch of primary kids yg gonna have exams tomoroe watched america’s next top model wif mummy.been along time since i really watched any tv program.i mean managed to stay put until it endsla.i really adore tyra banks.she’s simply very beautiful n pretty.tiptop n purrfect!she looks like a barbie doll.cunnye.most astounding eyes ever~.i can’t believe she was a dorky n had suffered many setbacks n rejections before becoming a “seriously” succesful supermodels.agen2 yg reject de msti nyesal skang.n i do believe she has a good heart n beautiful inside too.sumtimes when people are sincere u just can feel it.i dunno.i think so.well..she’s just soo in control of herself n noe just the right moves n expressions at da rite times.so different wif carmen electra of manhunt yg bajet seductive n gediks..lackadaisical of charisma..(wut i think).hehe.im sure dis season like usual has myriad of surprises in store!to be honest..my prediction of da winner had neva been correct even once since da ist season.huahua.though i wholeheartedly believed n supported dat my pick was gonna win!sure heboh gile.but it alwiz turned out da other way round~so dis time around..no more prediction..hihi

oops..lupe plak..for da past week..a bunch of gratitudes n i owe u guys a lot..u all are a bunch of manusia yg sweeto..~:]

*pza n her rummies + menumpang kaseh@katil slame 2 hari slame d uia..kak ekin gal wif sweet smile..ana yg pendiam ckit tp cun ha..n of course everdearest cutie sweet salmi..for allowing me to explore ur laptop until 4am in da morning..sharing wif me ur favourite songs nasyeeds n heartwarming articles i'm sure gonna stick to my head as long as amnesia does not befell upon me.haha~insyaAllah..bile ukhwah fillah..though its just a short term taaruf it just stays in ur heart n keeps on blooming ;]..n buku 1515..by faisal tehrani of pza’s..me br jek abis bace..sronok n mengiktibarkan.ohh..aahh ..kalo ade mknn yg cm dh berkurang kuantiti de kat dapor korg tuh..hehe..jgn risau tuh bkanla angkara tikus tetapi hanyelah manusie biase..heheh~

*che ar yg bsungguh2 jd tour guide 4 my le tour de uia.dr kol 9 smp 12.smangat~dr library (cilok matrix kad rumet de to enter) to masjid uia(sempat suruh makcik africa tuh to take ur pics..ngeh2)n rows of cafes (nescafe?) so called tasek wif a bunch of bangau(bangau2 B.O.D..haha)to faculties n admin centres...bergambar (sungguh jakun) smbil berceriter..haha..gona mis dat nite..

*maahad frens..eda zane uyun tika emed ayong sal aziah yam lili sue adah jpah pza ismail n che ar lagi..irazi daud wakje juan jimin din yusry pikri zul ijoy jali rushdone mdno(all da way from jb..isk2..aku hargai jasemu..)helmy faiz ehsan lokman..erm..ade lagih tak name2 tertinggal?insyaAllah takde kot..
thanks sal n ayong for da cute thingy n card~!..oho..juan..gule2 tongkat!

*last but not least..amyriah yg kujumpai khamis lepas..dah balek um dh de skang..hehe..blanje bakso drinks n rojak kat angsana!hehehe~n also for da very pretty kain ela utk buat baju kurung..thanks a heap darrlingg!~

not to forget..alhamdulillah~stelah jd chef amatur at d recent kem nuqaba' me sekan-akan mndpt hidayah utk lebih gemar memasak..yeye~akhirnye!i've discover da passion..hihi!senang jek memasak nih rupenye..rase cm wen i joint venture cooking wif mummy..it just tastes better!really..(ke imagination aku nih?)..haha..eniwey..way da go toy!!

serenity

2005-07-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

erm..dah lame tak berblogging.bnyknye bennde nk crite tapi tak tau nk stat camne.erm..stat ngan lepak kt uia.haha..best btol..2 hari lepak sane...ahad till selase..ehh 2 hari ke tuh?cam 3 ari 2mlm jek..hehe..menumpang kaseh @ katil ngan pza utk 2 mlm..hehe..thanks ek pza..not to forget rummies de yg baek2 belaka..kak ekin yg senyum sweet..n gile anime cm pza gak!ana yg cun (budak sek tun mamat rupenye..tak sangke org muo)..n of course...da ever sweetest cute salmi terchenta!hihi.erk.lupe plak..aku ulang balek msg aku pade salmi..hehe..kalo ade mknn kt kitchen korg yg terkurang tuh..jgn risau..bkan tikus yg curik..manusia biase jek..hehe..a bunch of to be engineers yg sgt mengutamakan tetamu menyibuk cm aku nih.hihi.tak sangke plak..selame nih tau name jek..pza slalu letak kt blog..skang dh knal upclose n personal lak.knal salmi sbb de jd fasi kt kem nuqaba’.akhirnye ..kawanmu kawanku jua..:].keciknye dunie.owh..lupe plak..mini gath kt hartz chicken@time square..erm..sampai2 sentral jek lpas slot kad nmpak juan tgh borak ngn lokman.aik..rasenye dh lambat aku nih..kol 2 lebey time tuh..tegor de..buli de angkat beg besar akuh..trimas~!de tgh tunggu jmin din faiz ehsan ngan sape lagi tah.aku tros pg surau.nk jumpe aziah ngan jpah.bagoslah..marile kte bergerak scr berjemaah ke time square.ade eda zane uyun emed tika che ar yam sal ayong adah sue lily pza zul irazi wakje daud jali pikri ijoy ngan awek de kot yusry helmy haha...md no (terharu aku..dr jb semate-mate) ngan rushdone yg dtg lambat ngan nurul awek de kot.ade tak name lain aku tak sebot?insyaAllah dah sebut semue..thanks yek korg sume~korang mmg manusie yg sweeto~

ha..aku nih bgn terus tak tdo lpas suboh sbb dah plan ngan mummy mlm tadih..pagi2 nih nk pg kedai sesame nk buat pau.n nk buat lengkong.tapi mummy tdo lagih..satgla kejut de.Alhamdulillahla sejak jd tukg masak kt kem nuqaba’ tuh aku semakin mendapat hidayah utk lebey rajin n berminat memasak..huhu..klako kan aku nih?senang jek rupenye memasak nih..hehe~n harini ade lagi satuh niat suci.nk amikkan tmanye borg application mrsm.ayah ajak p pajabat mara dlm kol 11 nnti.recent xm de dpt 3as 5b.okehla tuh.ade peningkatan.kire melayu pertame klas de though de klas 1st.biaselah bdak skolah biase.takde persaingan @ desire nk bersaing.ini pon hari2 kene motivate ngan push.insyaAllahla..selame aku ade kt umah nih bleyla aku tgk-tgkkan.
sok kene naik kl lagik.rabu jpa nk jumpe.dgr2 nk bagi elaun n bg briefing bout accommodation kt indon.de nk jumpe dak2 indon bound jek.khamis till jumaat plak ade psycho camp kat kompleks sukan selayang,gombak.bebudak nih tak sabo plak nk berpsycho camp..depa kate boring dok umah.uish..boringke?hehe..me dok rumah bz melayan adek2 kecik berempat nih.man ecad tma ngan una.terhibor sgt2 ngan husna yg semakin chumel n berisi n bertambah ceria semenjak baek dr demam dulu2.ceria sungguh bdak kecik tuh.ade2 jek aksi2 cerie de.asyik gelak tak berenti-renti.laktuh skang dah pandai bukak peti ais sndirik then curi ikan bilis dlm peti ais.uish..suke mkn ikan bilis mentah..wekk!br habis bacer buku 1515 pzahnnye karya faisal tehrani.best gak cter tuh..betul ke mitos lagenda nyemah mulah tuh pzah?pastuh apsal de banyak edition flashback?mane satuh yg btol nih?konpiuss aku..herm..skang nih tgh on da way nk habiskan baca "bekam:cara perubatan mengikut sunnah rasulullah".herm..dah lame tak tgk tv..maleihh..

2005-07-18T12:00:00.000-07:00

believe it or not...rite now im in iium gombak's comp lab..muahah!da place jmin n pzah most probably will update their blogs..well..what can i say..da theme song of my life is still.."dendang perantau..."muakaka

just got bak from da kolokium kepimpinan nuqaba'..it was held from friday to sunday at hutan rimba rekreasi seremban.the first day it was raining heavily when isa rashid n me fetched yus n liana the gals fasi at da commmuter.then i was assigned to to be the receptionist at da registration counter by encik ustok.got da tag-name of urusetia.then came dilla bros kinah n anor howling yelling..toyy!!yay..relieved to see dem after anticipating for so long.there they was..uia gals..salmi(pza's alwiz talked about rumet)n wiwi..i cant believe that they're soooo cute n good muslimah too!

then came my main task of cooking wif dilla n anor n kak jeeha yg tetbe dtg out f nowhere..haha..mohsein punye maksu..kak jeeha..juga penuntut uia sains kemanusiaan sgt2 islamic sweet ayu n sopan santun..uwaa..org2 kat cni mmbuat aku rase terlalu hine dgn diriku sendirik..blelah aku nk berubah jadik cam deorang ek?isk2

muahaha..dsebabkan status aku yg (tak berapa reti masak tapi bolehlah ckit2)..aku awal2 dah nmpak matlamat aku iaitu mari kopek bawang!pastu kite basuh then kte blender ngan ikan bilis..muahaha then campak dlm kuali wat tumis.pastu serahkan pd chef wan n chef ismail edisi wanita (dillabro @ mak beros n kak jeeha)..then aku watla ape2 yg patut..aku lbey gemar part2 kemas mengemas nih..
tanak nasi..nasiblah dak2 laki urusetia agaklah cooperative n reliable..iaitu alimin..haha..bio de..kalo takde keje asik honeymoon kat beranda ngan hasnol ajak..huh2..mlm first..lepak2 kat bilik urusetia ngan dilla n anor sambil berborak-borak n memami jarum..came da tak best part..aku terhimpit sekeping lebah yg dgn tertindakan refleksnye trus menyengat ibu jari aku..uwaa..!!trus takde mood..benci btol..bilik tuh mmg bnyk lebah..awal2 dah sedar..ade lobang kt wall de..mujurlah ade dr sakinah pembekal pil anti histamin n minyak aromatherapy utk mengubati kesan gigitan ituh..anor pon kn sengat jugak..tp yg aku kecewa tuh..2nd day pn kn sengat lagih 4 da 2nd time plak kt ibu jari kaki..uwaa..yg nih mmg seksa..sbb de bengkak susah nk menapak lagi2lah seksa cos aku pakai terompah yg dbeli d kelantan spanjang kem tuh..huhu..seksa..tp stlh menurut nasihat anor yg tdak mrase sakit stlh menyapu minyak gamat sengatan kat kaki tuh dah ceased.tapi yg kat tgn punye bulge n membengkak..lagi2 masok 2nd n third day..gatal sangat..tdo tergaru-garu..uwaa..naseblah..harinih dah ilang rase2 tuhh

lagi satu yg tak brape best..air kat kem kene catu!memasak kn berjimat air dan terpaksu mengangkut talam2 n utensils dr bilik urusetia ke tandas (the only source of water)yg agak jauh..siap kene lalu jmbatan gantung lagik.ha..part hygienic pon kurg bkesan ble tader air.mujurlah urusetia bnyk ms meronggeng.2nd nite mandi kt masjid negeri.hihi.
okeh2la..sambung nanti..ble ader mood nk bercerite lagih..sbb perut pzah dah meraung-raung minta diisi..hehe~

tomorow..

2005-07-15T02:31:00.000-07:00

sok..aku naik sban jd ajk food utk kolokium nuqaba' 4 juniors..anjuran badan dakwah rohani ktt ngan tanzim nuqaba'..biaselah kene masak memasakk utk anak2 buahh..haha..bebaek la koran..kasi warning awal2..hope korg tak keracunan..aisey..keke!
then ahd nih ade reunion kt time square tataula jadih ke tak..harap2 food tak disappointing n jadik smooth..haha
okeh..all d best to me!!

kakak yg bertandukk

2005-07-14T22:40:00.000-07:00

harinih konpiden gle ade appointment gigi kat hsa.tarikh yg kutunggu-tunggu..13.7..dgn semangatnye..sejurus sahaja fatimah bersiap2 stelah pulg dari skolahh(dahle de br lpas exam) aku n tmah trus brangkat utk naek bus d jejantas shell.ms tuh waktu sudah pukul 2.45.buat kesekian kalinye aku yakin aku pasti akn lambat lagikk utk appointment ituhh(seperti biaselahh)..
btol telahan aku..smp osptel..jalan kaki ke dlm lagi..m'ambil mase 10 minute..konfim lmbt stengah jamm
smp d kaunterr..
adek bwak tak kad merah appoinment tuh??
err...cam takde jek bagi kt saye?dlm ati..(ke ko tak ingat n dah ilangkann?)
biasanye ade..mmg arinih eh?jap ek..(muke nurse dah stat monyokk)
aku dah cuakk..tetbe..adek..appointmen adek smlm spatutnye..12hb..
ehh..yeke..?saye sure gle harinih
tgk kad nih..
arghhhhhh..how on earthh??aku konpiden kompom sure gla..
dr bz..nk appoinment laen 12.9
erm..takpela kak..saye dah takde kt cnih ms tuhh..huhu
aisey..camne ley jd kronik camnih toy??such an important thing..ish3..lesson to be learnt:jgn amik things for granted @jgnle blurry n careless sgtt..ish..sgt menyesalla..kalo truskan mcm nih camne jd doc nanti?tma:haha..konpim lmbt..24jam setengahh..huahua..gelak besoo
takpe2 hidop msti dteruskan..pjalanan dteruskan ke city square..jeng3..
best gle plak rayap ngan tmah adek kandungku..nilah first time ktorg hangout together as teenagerss..sbb gap umo 5tahun..dulu..aku anggap de cm bdak hingusan jekk..asek buli n marah de ajek..sian plak ingat de kene ngan aku dulu2
tp skang ble dah beso..lagi2 cuti brnih..rs cam close plak..bnyk gle mende ley gelak..lagi2la turned out yg personality de aku ngan danesz cm lbey kuang ajak..huhu..imitation ke cloning nihh??
lagipon..de ade better taste dr aku in fashion..(mnurut delah..konpden btolll!!)..haha..btol gakk kot..
eniwey..best gel ar..mkn kat vivo..(cam biaselah de pau aku..)..same2 mkn mknn2 yg menggemokkan smbl bacekan de geog..haha..sok de ade xm geog by da way..gle ah..lom stadilagikk..
rayap punye rayap lagik..ble skirt cun kat fos (murah gle)..ngan elegant striped pant kat colors..haha..puas atilo..ade 50%..hihi
konon nk balek kol 8..KO ade xm sok kan tmah?
hehe..skali smp umah kol 11..kuar dr cs 9.30..hehe..tak stadi langsung lagik ek tmah?
sok sakit kaki takyah g skolahla tmah..xm amik nest week..btol2..tmah kalo jln jauh..biasenye kaki crammed..okies..itulah konklusinye..
aku tlh mengheret adek aku ke lembah kehinaaan..wakaka~

unwell again

2005-07-12T19:24:00.000-07:00

arinih tekak sgt sakitt..ntah kenape..rase amat feverish..n not in da mood..rase cm nak marah2 constantly..tp thh dikawal dgn baek..
i just feel dat im so bluish today..herm:(taught tuition to bunch of indian kids yg kacau bilau n a very weak in malay standard 2 student ..a boy yg ade harapan dah beso bakal hensem..haha
sian de..sebutan pon tergagap-gagap esp nga..nya..
tak reti bezakan a ngan e..erm..nak polish la budak nih..
danesz cpatla balik brissy..ley kte berwebcamm bersame-same..webcam yg br dibeli ituh cam tdak berfungsii..

c ramp it!!

2005-07-11T23:41:00.000-07:00

Just got bak from ila's home my bestest best fren when i was in flextronic senai.erp..my typhoid jab itches..n how am i going to get another hep b jab since dis one still itches?2 days ago met up with diana n her baby whom she calls azah in angsana with her husband.cool..i love babies..cute looked just like her..her husband seemed an obedient,responsible and an innocent type.holding da babies..all da way untill the baby sleeps.I told Diana how lucky she is to get such an understanding hubby.She said he adores babies.I told myself if i were to get a husband he must have that criteria:understanding n cooperative plus islamic!haha.Im feeling quite feverish at da moment n not so lively to live.I also managed to get two big ulcers in my mouth finally.Turns out that ila had the same symptoms last week.She told me to blame it on the damn warm weather..too much durian uptake + lack of fluid uptake into da body.Haha.That is so true I ate tonnes n tonnes of durians.these past weeks n even at her house!...thats why my dizziness are on an alarming mode continously.I wish da durian season will disappear immediately.Fancy me blaming my uncontrolled eating habits on the durian season per se.I better tone down before my colleagus get traumatised when they see my new appearance dis coming Friday!c'on toy!!u can do better than this!haha.

Reminiscing my joyful good old days in Flextronics.I worked there for about 3 months.At first i was nervous to go for da interview.I was all alone!n I had to lie to get tje job..telling them i previously worked in MPH bookstore in angsana quitted working der cos the pay is low..i had to work to support da family n my sis is in uitm segamat!poor me..i actually cheated big time to get the job..!~but i finally made it..it was nerving to adapt yet joyous n exciting all da way,I made lots of new friends..be it indians..(remmbering thilaga..)indonesian(i even took their contact details once i found out i got jpa indon :(..)..makcik2 (wah..they entertained me a lot..)n even the ganggsters...people that made my tummy churned first time i saw them in gangs..n later turned out they became my bestest frens..ila n diana..kahkah..it's all ironic..i learned quite lots of new things..(shariza said im infected..hehe..she knows what i mean..hihi)..then i knew the true meaning of joget lambakk..haha..i went to the wedding in glang patahh..sum of da makciks2 even weeped when i resigned..n sum gave me things..wah..im honoured n touched..erm..ha..not to forget..the abg2 kantin(haha..cantiknye lesung pipit de..kahkah..yeah..rite!!..)n bagongg??haha n da cute n ever baek abg amm..
n ila..she's da serius type..but also lawoks at times..loves to think a lot..esp when doing work..she was da one taught me apply minyak cap kapak on da eyes ble ngantok esp shift malam..tapi ila is very2 generous..always pemurah esp ngan me..hihi..
diana plakk the always laughing stock esp ble de tgh bengong..the seductive one..made us memorize her a-z boifren.we da joint force team wen ila's face dah triggered.."tgh pk bebanyak nih"made ila..to lepakla woi..n laugh2 again..ha..n she da impulsive n a very222 daring one too!
ha..its funny..even time separates..location diverges..me n ila still be there for diana's wedding..da last person to leave..had to be her loyal audience yg tuko baju bape puluh helai nk amik gambo..me..be there for ila's every burstday party..n now even she dah ade anak..make it a point to meet up..n me being her anak's mummy angkat..hehe..aku dah ade anak angkat.!!hihi..ila plak dah made a vow wif me to bersanding satu plamin..yelah tuh..(as if i want to bersandingg!!)willing to wait until me grad another 6 years..hehehe
once u become frens..u just forever become frens...

help

2005-07-08T02:11:00.000-07:00

help me...to control my internet addiction...~sumone please helpp me...:(

summary

2005-07-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

okeh2
saturday:
briefing was good..the spokesperson of nugrahan agent was so convincing dat made me eager to go to gajah mada riteaway..bersemangat!n got introduced to my to becoming comrades for da medic n pharmacy prog.but da shocking part was it turned out dat we have to fly on 27july instead of mid august..even da jpa rep wasnt der to clarify dat!
afterwards..tenet wif mummy at klcc..wow..berdue sahaja..jgn jeless papakuu~haha.spent kat guardian jek dh berjamm jamm..huhu..

sunday..
went shopping at 1st lady..yg besh..haha..danez..me bought u a shawl putih yg 5$ jekk!haha..shopping at jalan tar!
ptg depart tuh makgee's home..had wonderful bbq yg sgt2 kenyang gler!!
mlm den blk umah...

monday
smlm ek??watpe eh??da whole house bgn lambat..even tmah n ecad tak pi skolah..huahua..sgt pnat..smp umah mlm td kol 3am!

tuesday
harinih tak peduli musti jugakk pi osptel amik jab..typhoid n hep b..turned out hepb nye vaccin tader stok..just hv to pay 20$ 4 dat typhoid.have to take hepb at clinic which prob will cause 60-80$..waduss..vaccin sgt vitl utk p negare2 yg food n water supply de tak bape bersihh!!then went dental checkup..sesaje jek..ended wif n appoinment on 13.7 to clean my teeth..ngee~man plak cek lidah de yg tumbuh bijik2..rerupenye panas..kurg airr..haha

tomorrow..
ha..nak shop 4 luggage..luggage pon tader lagikk..huhu!
dearie hudanesz sure tgh having hella gud times in melbourne 2 weeks stay..then nk pi tasmania plak..njoy bebeh!!

2005-06-30T23:52:00.000-07:00

Today..
I ate loads of durians last nite and today..as a result i feel equally much dizzy and lazy all throughout the day.And I sweat a lot too.Wahh... I no longer bother to watchout on my eating trait nor exercise.Huah2...I’m evolving into a hippo..with an expanding cheeks..

Congrats on dearie hudanesz for maybe doing well on her interview (I bet so..).
At least ur done on the interview part so u can shift ur focus on sumthings else..

Made a visit to my beloved old primary skool where i held many bittersweet moments..(nah..i dont wanna talk bout sum goofy and dreadful times i hd der..!) to fetch ecad’s report card.I noticed the skool’s getting nicer: more buildings , more facilities, always freshly painted.The skool is on constant expansion..be it in terms of structure and its achievement :good academics..plus previously nabbing the johor’s sekolah harapan award.

But Ecad's academic performance got me a bit boiled up.He got the 19th ranking out of 36 in his class.wut?with the lowest science marks.I bet dat quite dragged down his results.with her teacher’s quotation like “sumtimes he’s like in his own world” and “selalu tak siap kerja rumah”..arghh...he’s so gonna be basuhh by me..Also met puan salina who didnt acknowledge me claiming i look a bit fairer..huhu..my fren cum her daughter hazwani halim is in manipal taking medicine already set to enter her 2nd year.

arghh..da madagascar cd is being replayed over and over again for about 6-7 times a day by dat 2year old obsessive girl that just love to scream with all her throats out nowadays..

Tomorrow morning ill have to play my “elderly sis” role again.Taking tmah's n man's report card plak.I have to be mentally prepared for man's from now.Boys are soo gonna be boyss..

N tomorrow too, dis time around Insya Allah we'll be on our way to KL, departing after maghrib.Have to attend the gAjah Mada briefing on Saturday at corus hotel (hotel ape nih?xglamernye..tapi dpan klcc)at 9 am..and have to angkut sum of my stuffs at ktt and makgee's home..owh..lupe plak..my cousin amirah got jpa accounting offer to new zealand doing her prep in INTEC..ganbate mirahh!~!!

2005-06-29T23:44:00.000-07:00

I wrote dis sum times during my early days of dis holiday..

Most Precious Gift

Spent my last nite in Sepang at Pak Long’s house.Eating out,stuffing myself with large chunks of chicken chop that was damn irresistible until i filled my stomach half dead.Mak Long & Pak Long had been extremely nice and a great help to me during my previous 2 years study in KTT.Welcoming me in their house every now and then,especially when there is a feast, treating me like their very own.Their home, a 5minute drive from KTT is like a safe haven for me to nestle everytime things just get damn bored and offhands.

But greatest lessons had to be from Mak Long who constantly reminds me of Islamic values and tazkirahs awaking my senses to be in constant awareness of my responsibillities and Islamic values that sumtimes I tend to take for granted.Though sum of my family members are not so agreeable with her (i hope neither her nor any of my family members are reading dis!), I do appreciate small talks I had with her which helped to keep me in solid grounds from time to time.I could feel her sincerity and generosity, hardly to admit, I felt at ease with her.

And greatest gifts had to be the two Al-Qur’an with translations she gave to me.One when i first enrolled myself in KTT two years bak, one that I recited dailyly whenever I could(InsyaAllah)..until I had the hard cover torn (MasyaAllah...)

And the recent one ..a small hand sized Al-Qur’an..metallicly gold-covered.The first time I saw it when she ordered me to..I was astonished..estimating it must have costed a bomb.As I pored thru the pages..finding out dat the aayat was organized at a corner on top of the pages with the translations beneath it.The translations were continous so it appeared as though we’re reading a story.That’s what make the arrangement so unique and beautiful.It seemed to me dat it was the most practical and perfect gift ever. I was attracted to it like a magnet the first moment I touched it.

She thought of giving it to me when I am about to fly but instead she gave it to me
rightaway.
“Dok sesaje boleh baca.Kan kecik,kan?Boleh letak dalam bag.Baca tau..”
Insya Allah.I was touched n grateful at the same time.Receiving a practical, small beautiful new Al-Quran.

MakLong once told me:”Anak sedara yg paling pak long sayang sekali Tahirahlah..Kecik2 dulu time die balik keje jek mesti dukung Tahira.Kengkadang tuh tahirah tak pakai seluar..”
hehehe..i dont know how much is the truth of that remarks..

part time housewife?

2005-06-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

I’m becoming a part time housewife this holiday.I sweep n mop the floor,vacuum the carpet, do the laundry,hang and fold the clothes,handling the three stooges: taking care of a 2 year old annoying yet adorable toddler nana and being a disciplinary teacher ro two disciples, aged 13 and 10.Except i don’t do the cooking.Hehehe.I’m learning ok.And during my leisures: I read witty books n watch past movies in cds..Haha.Wut an ideal life of a housewife.

Now i dont know whether my initial plan of quest for driving license will be realised or not.Tomorrow will determine it.I will decide.Do I have time?I have about 1 and half month left.Will it be sufficient?

During dis one week of part time housewife vocation i undertook i discovered cuna@nana’s newly found capabilities:
cuna dah pandai obejus
cuna dah pandai count clearly until 12 n dah fluent nyanyi twinkle2 little star dgn gaya!
cuna dah pandai say no no no when i shove to her teeth toothbrush
cuna dah tak payah pakai diapers..die pandai ajak pegi tolet bile nak pee n poo
cuna tak suka makan durian..weird for my family who particularly eats anything..haha!
cuna has passion for kittens..sgt berani untuk dukung n belai kitten tuh buat cam baby sendirik smp dat kitten tdo n she just wont let go!aduhai..even me pon tak brani nk dokong cats :}
cuna obsess dgn katun watch madagascar berulang-ulang tanpa jemu dgn jayanye n hilai tawa kambing
if i scold her cuna dah pandai merajuk dan juga revenge by scolding me back plus gaya!

yg tak best tuh...
loves wailing + shrieking for no particular reasons for long minutes just to get attention though everyone is giving her attention..duhhh!

Enuf bout cunna
Shift to baby **** plak who is undergoing her interview tomorrow:
U have nothing to worry about.I know u don’t need anything extra.U just have to be done with dat research of urs to be prepared.And no matter how unprepared nervous n queasy u might feel righ now we(me and da whole family)know by heart dat u just have da rite proportion of wat it takes to pass the interview with flying colours!
Just have to be urself, confident, n smile(like u always do! J) n express whatever u wanna express in whatever sentence u may form n go all out showing them u just have what it takes!
And of course, we (da whole family!) will accompany u from afar with lots of prayers cos dats the most vital element n da most determining factor of all!Allah’s help and our loves are accompanying u, sis!
Goodluck bebeh.I just love my sis hudanesz.

Friends oh friends..

2005-06-27T22:25:00.000-07:00

I slept at 3 last nite.Chatted sum matters wif mum.Catching up with things and unevoked feelings.N last nite i dreamt of aini zahidah n tasha..my ktt frens..For 3 consecutives nite i’ve been dreaming of my friends.Be it kilang friends..maahad frens n ktt frens..On da first nite i dreamt of my housemate aida.I was pleased with the outcome of da dream but i was not feeling rather happy in it.While on da 2nd nite i dreamt of diana my kilang fren getting married when she’s already married, by the way already having a half year old daughter nor azharina which unfortunately i havent seen yet.Herm.. she looked pure n innocent n somehow her husband transformed to be handsomer in that dream of mine... It seemed so real..surreal..Following last nite aini’s n tasha’s appearing image was the nightmare of me not ready facing my chemistry options test..N i kept asking myself..i thot i’ve already faced dat test..how many times am i supposed to sit for da test.. I guess its the same unprepared feeling i experienced when i actually sat on dat test da last time..Gosh..i wish i never ever have to feel such a queasy feeling ever again..Wondering..wuts actually behind all these dreams of mine??Fortunately these dreams do not in any way distract my soundness of sleep..I woke up at 11..hehehe..~awakened by smses sent by ila, another of my best kilang buddy saying she misses me(yeah..i’ve been wanting to meet her too)n yuhana ..she got an offer in um sabah in industri n teknologi serat kayu..keke..even her mom giggled at the mention of dat peculiar course when i called her home.Funny..i just thot bout dem last nite..
Quoting a prose written by amy tan in her book the opposite of fate.My favourite book,one which i currently read wholeheartedly at a slow rate..savouring each every meaningful word fearing that i might skip any meaningful words,cos the book is so expressive and deserves two thumbs up for language..Whether seemingly simple or fancy, the prose i like is such that everything is there for a reason..every word..every image every bit of dialogue adds and builds to the prose.
Oh..bak to my main point..quoting amy tan..every human must face anomalous variation nightmare of unreadiness be it to face exams..job interviews..The meaning is obvious..no matter how much we’ve accomplished, we still feel inadequate, unprepared.It’s not surprising.Many of the greatest moments we experience are moments we cannot adequately prepare for, the birth of a child, the death of a loved ones.And that’s how life goes..u just face it whether u’re prepared or not.
Meanwhile,regarding my consequtive friends appearing dreams..maybe i just miss my frens..showing how much my frens mean and contibute to the wholeness of my life.Maybe..

N oh..before i forget.. to julidah..my another kilang fren who recently got engaged (she’s younger by one year from me)..happy engagement n sorry i could not be present on dat auspicious event..haha..(jiwangg)..May dat one relationship lasts..haha..
I cant help but feeling blessed dat no matter how time may flies..no matter where i go..my frends still can be bothered to contact me..catching up wif the development of our lives..hopefully it stays dat way..

To all my frens..may our relationship lasts..
I wish u all interesting lives..
Dedicate the song “bintang di surga”..my most peberet song of da peterpan’s album which I’m particularly listening to rite noww..

webcammy!!

2005-06-23T18:27:00.000-07:00

me tgh chat wif hudanesz using ym attached to webcam..aint it cool...??!!wanna have my own later in indonesia ..easier..then buy mic skali takyah nak call2..n cost savingg..sis said webcam costs around 100rm..worth itla gak though movement de a bit slow..herm..im so gonna get myself one laterr..

today i became a cinderella again..washed loads of clothes using hand due to washing machine dat ran down..huhu..takpe toy..burn off dat calories..n did sum gardening..one thing wondered me..i neva fail to injure myself wenever i weed..i alwiz end up getting a scratch ke..mosquito bites ke..but usually a benign lengthy scratchla..huhu..

2005-06-22T04:00:00.000-07:00

huhu..been a damn long time...lengthy long journey i underwent..
1)da finishing of da a2 level..chem option proved to be da trickiest n most nervewrecking..oh..my heart wrenched bcos of dat!da visit of cambridge definitely didnt inprove da situation any better trust me..holla..a great damaginging finishing line..shall i say su'ul khatimah exam?

2)grad dinner proved to be a blast..me n dilla s d ajk protocol managed to exhale soothing breaths..lega..everything planned turned out da way it should be..xcept da flooding media rep proved to lag da event wif abundant pic taking not to forget da fabricated pic dat appeared on cosmos paper..me grinning like a bear "huhu".but da slide show was awesome n touching n asmaradana dance deserved a huge compliment too despite lack of practice..tak sesia..aku jadi ajk costume dance..hehe..appoint sendirik..my dress code for da nite..lets cover it all..make it arabic stylo..simple but sweet..(huhu..perasannye)

3)weekend interval b4 btn:went to aida's house..her cousin's wedding..her nephew hariths burstday blast..wif fatin kak umi n kak lang yg chumey..sunday met up wif sakinah (anak dr lu'lu'..hihi) which was having her 3month uni hasanuddin hols..deliberately went to her home as well met wif dr aminuddin dr lu'lu' n family..a generous family she has..

4)day 4 btn arrived..btn started wif solid boring lectures..twisting into interesting mind sharing ldk..wif cool cooperative n sweet groupmates..u guys rawkss..n well experienced n trained fasi too..flying fox n n abseilling was also satisfying..beshnyee!!so on da whole 5 days stay der was worthwhile n worth to be appointed as kinda sweet memories to be recalled upon later despite da absence of water n...

5)filling da forms of gajah mada caused me to return home on tuesday though btn finished on friday..we have to return to kl on 2nd july for gajah mada uni briefingg...last person to leave ktt..ya..dat was me..pencinte ktt..

arrived home dis maghrib...it has been wonderful time..wonderful experience..i just discover dat it all happens too fast..everything..well good things dont last long..set 4 a new journey..new hope 4 da hols..
starting wif 6long hours of internet surfing tonite...10pm till now...oopppsss..:P

artsy bebeh?

2005-06-03T14:00:00.000-07:00

ive just linked a new webpage der----->
al-ahkam..courtesy of pza's blog....check out da sites..oh u can even register as a member
how do i define arts?to me arts is sumthing that is beyond words.. meaning.. u understand or analyze sumthing not da way it appears to be.sumthing metaphoric..like lets say..sum mishaps befell upon u..but instead of feeling sad u feel at ease n blissful cos u know there's blessing in disguise on contraire actually Allah's way to show the right path.on the other words..arts are emotion expressing
so the way u view matters deviating from the way it appears to be is also a form of art to me..
n of course arts are painting..singing..acting..socializing..projecting n expressing human emotions..
arts and science are interconnected..a man dats damn brilliant but devoid of arts or emotions can be considered as stone..hard..unvulnerable but worthless..vulnerable in another sense
that's why great scientists were also great philosophists..naming a few..ibnu sina..leonardo da vinci..
science and art are complementary to each other almost like yin and yang..
im a person of two faces..im passionate of both science and arts..i love biology chem n phy..n at da same time my linguistics, histories and geographies inputs are not to be taken lightly..the love for these two fields run parallel inside my brain n heart..
n ahah..did i ever mention my undying love of singing n acting..these activities are so liberating n entertaining to my dear self..heheh
n referring to my 'actual' ambitions...i had plenty utopian career to choose from:
geologist..archaeologist..journalist..english linguist..psychologist..environmental@ chemical engineer..n alas a doctor..
finally i chose da latter one just because the path is unambigous..get a jpa scholar..apply medic..a more directed path from beginning...n moreover.. a more 'popular' job choice..
but dat didnt smolder my passion for arts any lesser..the need for linguistics epiphany fuel my desire or anxiety to venture more into the world of witty writings n witty writers..
maybe u don get wut im saying..but da truth is..there's a tantamount rooms out there to quench my thirst of neverending knowledge quest...like mr zaini says.."never ever lose the passion to always be eager to learn"..yeargh...

its funny..

2005-06-01T13:45:00.000-07:00

its funny how i have so many things at da bak of my head but don now how to express them..
its funny im attached to da computer n reading oither people's blog wen i don even noe them..
its funny how i suddenly hate my own blog for a soo childish layout..
its funny dat all of a sudden im conscious bout wut im gonna write in my blog..
n i think i now why im feeling funny..
cos i think im hungry..
segmen merepek dah berakhir....
yeargh..chem lab for tomorrow..phy lab next tuesday...n chem option next wednesday..meaning dat i'll have plenty of times to study for chem option da only theoretical paper left..i realized dat my pattern of sleeping had really changed during spm n alevels..
alevels allow me to sleep 7-8 hours dailyly..n it gives me more room for myself..lepaking n slugging..conclusively..a levels not so smothering (if ure da one dat ignorant bout stiff competition)..
its ironic how a two year program is already ending in a matter of a week..n its ironic of da fact dat no matter how plain boring n solok dis place is im gonna miss it somehow..hahaha~
*me recalling da stupid sweet a level orientation week..huhuhu

2005-05-31T12:45:00.000-07:00

cooll...deserted computerlab n fast internet service...
just finished my biology lab..kinda okey..hehe..yah..tilikan kita benar2 belaka..tapi xtaula camne outcome de nanti like last yer i thought i fare quite well..but turned out dat i got a b for d lab..so its really unpredictable..
just started reading opposite of fate by amy tan, a non fiction book..its more like an autobiography, her musings on destiny..sixth sense..dat i found so far quite interesting..enuf to keep me glued to da pages..
i also bought two mini books..actually da cheapest book u can get inside saba shop yesterday..jesus in islam n muhammad in bible..i guess im quite inclined n anxious bout the debates regarding christian-islam..its worth to know wut actually happens rather than just pretend to be ignorant n continue living normally..(ape yg aku merepek ni?)
i hope to have the chance to read perjalanan ibnu battutah..slalu sgt kuar iklan tuh kat ikim..cambest jek buku tuh...menarikla..tapi mahal ar buku tuh..almost 200$..yay..mane nak dapek ongkos..?its really lucky if u had the chance to travel round da world..exploring the metaphors n beauty of things uve neva came across b4...its so refreshing..exciting n mind riching..
i wish dat if ive ever had da money in da world i could travel..to poor countries which are rich in unique cultures..
help those in needs..waa..tingginye cite2..takpe2..ambitions n dreams will be n impetus for me to get there sooner or later..Insya Allah ONE FINE DAY..takpon susah sgt..kawin ngan lelaki kaye..heh..heh..heh..gurau..
watching da national geographic in paklong's home last saturday nite (i was left all alone..dey all went to klia to send makcik sal bak to sabah)was enuf to excites me to ride on a hot air balloon to see da world from da upper view..intriguingnye to venture in aviation..
also tgh berangan nak try rock climbing..cambest..haha..banyaknye angan2 ko..tapi ni takler utopia sgt..cam bleh tercapai..
sok cam nak ikut aida pi survey baju kat um ukm upm..hehe..tapi tak sure..tgk ar dulu mood aku...sok ade paper math pure...tinggal lagi tige exam..way da goo.....!

2005-05-30T05:23:00.000-07:00

fetch my passport in shah alam today..
thought of fasting so i didnt eat der..decided to stroll on my own..
entered saba islamic media shop..ehh...unexpected..ade sorang abang yg ensem dahla islamic..haha
tapi aku xusha ponla..tertgk skali jekla..
lame gle usha buku2 kat cituh..
last2 sesat..nak naik shuttle...sume org dok cari aku.,.kate takleh contek aku..dahle tader kdt...haha
naseb mereka penyanyang2 sumenye..
hehe...aku..biaselar...macam2 ada..
sori ek korang...
k.huda jgn bersedih...everything will b okey..
me just luv ya!!

2005-05-27T17:26:00.000-07:00

after abis chem xm at 11.30 bz tengahari tolong aida settlekan costume tarian kreatif asmaradana die..then naik bilek at 1.30..fatin pon ade..shariza baru pasang HUm Tum..waa~ "cter industan..lame tak nengok..(tipu..br nengok cte saiya weken lpas ade john abraham yg masyuk)..aku baru rase nak nengok kal ho naa ho"..agh..tak dapat..
makan sambil tgk hum tum wat kali kedue..apekan daya rumet aku supplier vcd industan ori..fatin saket perot..food poisononing ke mkn nasi kerabu psr mlm smalam?g psr mlm smalam.naik kete diana..takbest cos de cam moody..(apekes?).sehari suntuk smlm aku mmg tader mood gle nak study chem
cam putus cinte plak aku rase.lpas surf net ptg tuh asik naik atas katil tutup mata pikir macam2 tapi tak tdo pon..then pikri bg msg..bangga de bnyk wat exercise maths..aku kate aku tgh tak bermotivasi..de kate apeni toy kate seronok blajar faktor kejayaan..huhuhu..klakala plak teringat ayatku yg poyo dlm paper utusan satu mase dulu..lawak btullah!iyolah..aku pon bgn nak stadi ptg tuh..tetbe dak2 nih dtg lepak bilik aku plak..n pdah msg..layan pdah..rindu plak kat de.de dh nak praktikal kat osptel bp 3bln ni..de kate takot nak praktikal..haha..aku kate takyah risau.. banyak dr ensem2..ehhh..kesitulah plak..kat psr mlm beli apam balik n laksa jek..tetbe aku kepingin nk mkn apam balik..tapi apam balik de tak best cam mkn tepung semate..sedey aku..topek plak msg..mintak aku predict topik ape kuar chem p4 arinih..ehh mamat nih..ingat aku tukang tilik ke?nak terbahak aku tergelak..kesian gak kat se ade p1 np4 chem paper arinih..tulah sape suruh gmi amik as ngan a2 level skalik..kan dah payah..n mlm tuh lpas balik surau yah (aziah zuber) plak msg..aku kate gudlak paper arinih..de kate hati de tgh menggigil-gigil ketakotan..kehkeh..ayat tuh mmg wat aku tergelakla..n aku sebar2 kan ayat lawak tuh kat rumets aku yg tompang gelak gak..haha..kekonon aku nk stadi serius2 la..sbb pagi n ptg dah berpoye-poye..tapi ish..distracted n ngantok lagi even though dah telan coffe..aisey..tdo jap..then kol 12 bgn..ish..takleh jadik nih..energise TOY!!gle ko lom stadi habok pon for chemy!!aku pon bersemangat..stay up smp kol 4..yeargh!!.anas miscall..dak nih musti stadi gak sok ade paper nih..hermm..n kala ni aku br abis tolong aida type surat nak faks pi upm ukm um nak pinjam costume dance..yg best tuh guna name rashid walaupon de tak tahu..haha~eksploitasi ape lagi~keke..aida malu nak mengaku!pastu trus aku melekat kat krusi nih..mlm nih nak stadi pure maths..tinggal theory paper math n option jek..lain labs..okeh!k.huda...njoy sydney trip..bebehh!!`..erm..regarding account tuh camne??

hectic!

2005-05-26T13:00:00.000-07:00

i cant believe its thursday already..the weeks had been passing so swiftly..my physics xm on monday was quite tricky..we didnt expect da environmental phy to feature neva seen before quest..ones that u have to derive it on ur own using ur own analytical thinking..not found in da books..so i just gave reasonable answers..like what is pollution n such..n i got stuck on physics of fluid quest!!

ending me up leaving a quest worth 2 marks..i was quite gabrak during da exams..sgt2 tak best rase rushing n tak njoy..sgt menyesal rase begitu..wen i act had da clue to do da quest!!aiya..

tuesday's ntrance xm was damn nerve n brain wrecking..they deviated from da past yer's ones..which was purely EASY.. n

n da fact dat we arrived one hour late at menara kbu made us suffer to do non stop papers..2 papers continously...9am till 1.30pm..on a flip chair!

imagine dat!lots of calculations...even da chem parts (empirical formula..Kc..ph..)n prohibited use of calculators to calculate(wut a joke??).i'm sorry to see my papers wif lots of empty answers..sorry i didnt have any clue on da spm math quest parts..i didnt even care to revise spm maths the night before...

from ist 50 quest..i think i just answered like 30...haha..4 marks for a correct answer n minus one for a wrong one..

so might as well u just leave it blank if u don know....haha...spent the times dodging my heavy head n cursing bilela nak abis?mls nak berusaha..

but truthfully..da most azab part was the iq test from 2 to 4..waa~mmg mancabar keimanan..u don even have time to breathe...wen it was finally over..i think i almost lost my sight...berpinar-pinar..gle ah..haha..pandainya ko berhiperbola toy

ending me up sleeping at 8pm dat nite..even thou tak revise bio n stat lagik..huhu mcm org putus cinte..penat whoa my brain

QuesTionnaires??

2005-05-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

my name? > noor tahira abdul karim
nickname? > toy..uyun younger bro started it wen i was a 2nd former staying in her house in parit amal for da weekend..
at first it started as "toy story" and obviously it started as a childish joke but horrorly my frens started to commercialise it n
thanks to dem it just sticked..yeah..papelah..comel gak name tuh..but up to dis point sumtimes come to think of it
"hey..i've a got a nickname"..i neva eva thot i'd ever had one
fave song? > if i aint got u!! by alicia keys..lagu yg awesome expressive cool n ade enigma..waa~ dgr berkali2 pon tak jemu..
kalo malay song awan yg terpilu ning baizura..sbb lagu yg bersemangat n penuh bertenaga bersungguh2 dsb.
shariza kate lagu nih pasal secret admiring..wut da heck..lagu tuh psl ning ngn bapak diela~ apela...
another one...ni susah ckit kengkawan aku nk terime..saari AF memori bahagia.~hahaha..suare die sedapla walaupon tak ensem
n montel ckit..n lagu tu pon berkualiti n bersungguh2..hehe
wut time u slept last nite?> 4am
bgn?> 7am..
why?? stady??u have bio paper at 10am rite?> nah..gayuting..mende tak berpekdah..
how d ya feel now?> sleepy n a bit dizzy..
wuts on ur mind?> napela comp screen nih flickering..dr tadi..
wy r u doing dis self answering questionaire?> currently bored of blogging..
Currently AmAZING NEWS U've heard?> kylie minouge contracted breast cancer...poor thingy..hahaha..
> uia gombak ade free internet kt bilik??id say WoWWW~! way da go..~!
makin ektipla encik jimin berblogging..
like anime?> nope..boley layan tapi tak obsessed..i dun like to be attached or obsessed wif sumthing cos its time n noney consuming +
its like total escapism from reality
loves reading??> yupp heaps..suke readers digest..manfaatkan kulit ke kulit n like books yg inspiring not typical n stereotype n
intellectual..
how d ya describe u?> practical simple moderate flexible loving caring environmental friendly unique expressive dramatis socialite laugh a lottt!~
any crushes?> yupp..tipulah kalo tak pernahh...but neva a serious one
missing?>skolah..good frens...cunna..mommy..sis hudanesz...my old self..haha..cekgu2 mahad..erm..nape tak rase rindu kat anything else..?
cari idea nk rindu..cepat toy..
wut ur plans are dis eve?>CAM biase play netball..ngan bebudak yg shashat tuh..
ur wishlist?>nk pizza..nyamph nyamph..everything sails smoothly..noe worries..eternal happiness n bliss nk gain sebanyak ilmu
dlm dunie..jd hambe yg taat..
ideal marriage age?> 26 @25 ke..(tu pon nk tanye n jawab)
falsampah?>cintailah sumthing or seseorang kerane de cintakan Allah @ kerana Allah
(nih baru dpt falsampah nih..kehkeh) jiwang gak aku nih..ehh jiwang ke..btoll ape?
>innamal akmalu binniat..hermmm
despise?>irresponsibillities littering tak sayang dirik distractions
tgh dgr?> lagu tamil im surrounded by a bunch of tamilians sedey lagunye..
ape plan tonite?>STADI
plg suke buat?> gosok gigi n mandi..basuh baju berkebun berkemas..comfort others..(yeke?)huargh3
nak makan?> sundae mcd bebanyak
most priced possession?>handphone bum watch yg talinye dah putus..haha sedey..wallet padiniku yg aku suke..digicam canon
org2 di sekeliling yg bermakne
dah bosan?> dah
tader idea dah?> aah..tetbe rase dah tak expressive
nak berenti?herm..yup
okeh> bye toy

2005-05-13T11:05:00.000-07:00

mad about me..
i didnt sleep the whole nite..due to penangan nasi goreng kampung shariza....
dek not wanting to allow the conversion of nasi goreng to fats..yay..you know..if u eat last 3 hours before u sleep the food will not be digested bahkan akan ditukar kpade adipose tissue..waa ngerinye..
sampai ati shariza..forcing me to balun the whole polystyrene of nasi goreng tuh..
die sesungguhnye slalu bersikap kejam dgn menjamu me wif pelbagai juadah..kire my food stockistlah..ade2 jek die nak gode aku..hins2...
tapi disebabkan da fatty deposit fearing issue..i managed to stay up da whole nite thru..n yet still not feeling dat all lethargic 2day..but wif da help of caffeine of course..
lately ive been caffeine consuming dailyly..its sumthing i rarely did in da past..cos i know caffeine is not dat good..it inhibits ur calcium absorption n it increases toxin builds up..i think soo..but i just love it especially da smell..waa~super nice..
last nite majlis restu ilmu was ok yet i much preferred last year's better..the students were lesser..n we communicated more..
2 days more b4 phy paper on monday...chaiyok toyy...check out dis link yg ade artikel jiwang tuh..buhsan2 bacelar..

get A grip..

2005-05-12T15:00:00.000-07:00

I have a fren..it loves to feel sad bout its life..even saying dis makes my heart breaks..n wut a letdown..i feel like im in no mean to ease it..it sure suffocates you wen ur close fren doesnt like its life..it's like sumthing that haunts me..that chase me..i feel bad thinking dat there is sumone who thinks their life is miserable..i dont say this to aggravate the situation.i just want to express dis..no matter who u are optimistic or not..if ure close to sumone dat's not so optimistic..its whether u infect him/her or he or she infects you..feelings and emotions are just infectious disease.this matter just distracts me..why?i just feel frustrated dat i've already given up to console him/her and at points i know he/she's sad but i can do nothing cos i just think"maybe its normal to be sad".but the truth is dat its totally not normal to be sad over nothing.i visualize her/his negative thoughts and sumtimes i try to indulge in her emotions.see it had its impact on me..and its starting to make me a sad person too..waa~ i don wanna be a sadistic person..
so im feeling quite tensed up thinking bout dat inappropriate matter...n wen i came accross articles like dis dat i finally manage to get a smile plastered to my lips..dah lame gle me tak read love/jiwang artikels and it turned out to be quite enjoyable..haha..break a leg..i cant link the webpage of da love artikels today..maybe later..but quite nice..okeylahh..
da thing is dat feelings or emotions are sumthing dat u create on ur own mind n can affect ur body and soul dearly..so..manage ur emotions well n beware of ur own thoughts..it will be da greatest mistake if u ever hate ur own self..dont ever be trapped in foolish thoughts dat will leave u unsatisfied by ur life..nobody's perfect..but accepts urself for who u are,respect others and know dat wutever it is..org yg beriman sahaja yg mulia di sisi Allah..let Allah n islam led u out of the entrapment n believe in Him..He'll guide ur way..it just requires u to believe to solve dis..n most importantly:life just goes on no matter how u perceive it..so might as well if u live life to da fullest n set those negative things aside..embark on sumthing yg surely beneficial in da long run..yay! banyak membebel harinih~

konfliks

2005-05-10T17:15:00.000-07:00

pagi tadi bio just mr saufi leter2..then ptg phy mr zaini mc demam..kesian de mesti overworked ni..de n anak2 nye mmg banyak penyakit n kesimpulan yg aku n kengkawan aku ley buat..jgnla kawin lambat2 sgt..bnyk penyakit..math tadi plak mr razib masyuk bercerite pasal indon.bile nak berenti ni.aku tanye berkali-kali pade beli.cam duta agen tourism board indon.aku rase agak excited.tak sabar nak g indon amik medic..bayangkan padjajaran..bayangkan bandung..waa~sceneric view de..next mon is da exam..me sgt2 toye n blur.tiap2 ari still ley tdo 7-9 jam lagik tuh..wah..~dis thursday ade majlis restu ilmu..to all frens mintak mahap salah silap..kalo rajen jemputla doakan saye yg hine nih...;).erm by da way aku sgt pelik dgn gejala ruam yg start naik atas mulut bwh hidung aku nih yg membuat aku rase gatal..nak garu!!hey..knape ni..camne ley contract ruam nih..sejak biler plak ni..tanpe ku sedari..nak bercakap pon rase kering n tak selesa..hish..aku mesti buat sesuatu...

medic here i come..!

2005-05-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

last nite we celebrated aida's 20th burstday..just da 6 of us..jaja..me..penut..farah..aida...azra..makcik tuh makin tue makin cacat..mcm2 gaye de wat time aku nak amik gambo de..adegan potong kek cam mat rock nak goreng gitar pon ade..hins2 tak senonoh..ape2 la..janji ngkorang bahagie..makcik haliaida khalid slamat arijadi yg ke 20..moge tak shashat n tak comot n bertemu jodoh yg best cepat2..kakaka!
smlm jpa mai..stelah diugut oleh kitorg(refer to my past postings)akhirnye jpa akan hanto kitorg pi gadjah mada n padjajaran uni international program..alhaldulillah..akhirnye..tak yah susah2 nak pk2 psl bjuang2la..huhu..
dlm banyak2 org tu ble jpa tanye sape nak g padja uni aku,aida anip n nadia je yg angkat..hins2..aku mmg more inclined to go to padja..padja kan kat bandung..scenery de mmg best gle cam kat cameron highlands compared to gm yg kat yogyakarta yg more of a cultural city yg bosan,dusty n hectic.lgpon dr kl ke bandung ade direct flight compared to kl ke jakarta then kene naik train g yogya 9 hours..tapi padja medic 6 yers while gm 5 years jek..tu yg agak menggugat pndirian aku nk pi padja wlaupon aku takla kesah sgt nk blaja lelame asalkan best n njoyable.dak2 klas aku sume nk pi gm.tapi tu pk nantila..gm ade ntrance xm which is on 24may(amidst our a2 level) n denga2 soklan de payah..kene prepare in da sense of revise past yer quest de..result kuar 3 jun n ntrance de end july..b4 a2level results..padja lak ade interbiu jek on midjun n entry de early sept..so lame lagi..so apply jekla dulu dedue..tgk dpt mn den pk later.yg tak best tuh kene gune duit sendirik dulu which gm ($386) n padjaja dlm $700.cet.then jpa will refund later.itupon kalo dpt both places.hins2.waa..tak sabo nk amik medic..insyaAllah..beshnye kat padja..

mommy

2005-05-03T12:55:00.000-07:00

kadangkala aku rasa malas nak tulis blog walaupon sbenanye banyak mende nak diceritekan..ini ialah mase2 tu.smalam g jejalan angsana ngan ami n wawa..pegi kamdar beli baju warna lime green cos i havent had a lime green attire yet..but wen i came bak home realized dat da fabric is memanaskan..waa menyesalnye shuld have bought da kimono styled one yg kiut gle..hins2

then in da eve around 5 wawa drove us all to visit sepupu die in neuro icu hosp sultanah aminah.smp sane kol 5.3o.tak sangke..kesian keadaan sepupu die.name de umi syakirah,sepatutnye thn ni amik spm.early dis year she was detected wif sle.her body immune system attack her own body immune system.they regard her own body as foreign antigen kot.sum sort like that.its a genetic disease plus her own immune system yg weak.memula her kidney was damaged..followed by her heart then her lung.then the most disastrous part her brain yg infected wif kuman n alami pendarahan dalaman n her blood circulation system.her tempurung kepala had to be removed n she is left wif a bengkak2 badan n muka in a coma n mampu menggerak-gerakkan mate je.doktor cakap kalau boleh burst jantung dah ley burst dah.n skarang ni bernafas attached to da machine.doc pesan ngan mak de suruh start bace yasin.what more can i say?berat mate memandang berat lagi bahu yg memikul.mak die nampak tabah tapi sebak bile crite kat kitorang.kaseh seorg ibu.die org muar.ayah de nelayan mak de buat keje2 kampung.ade lagi 6 org adek beradek.ade one corner depan lif where mak die tidur mlm2 n solat beralaskan tikar atas lantai.tersentuh hati ngan pengorbanan insan bernama ibu.sakit de drastik.memula ingat kudis biase.mungkin darah die dah stat kotor.then de migrain2 n muke pale.ingatkan demam biase.smpailah de kena sawan.barulah dpt detect sumthing's wrong.teringat kat my late makngah yg demam waktu raye 3 hari then terus meninggal.sakit sgt drastik n unexpected.bile2 je tuhan boleh tarik nyawa.bile turn bawah naik lif ade budak kecik nak masok pastu sorang makcik halang.makcik wawa gtau "bile duduk sini ingatkan kite paling susah tapi rupe-rupenye ade yg lebih susah dr kite.makcik td anak de kecik2 suami de pneumonia terus koma.org susah.kekadang termenung camne nk bagi anak2 lain mkn kt umah".terkesima n insaf.

baru satu hari kat icu.buat aku makin tak sabar nak jadi doktor

ble balik rumah jalan kaki maghrib2 smp rumah sbb wawa drop dkt jejantas yg agak jauh.smp umah penat.mak baru habis tusyen tapi boleh lagi layan husna yg berak n nak mandi n tolong marinate ayam utk ayah n his friends.penat aku penat lagi mak aku.tak pernah mengeluh atau marah2 mintak tolong.sayang mak,ape lagi yg lebih penting dari mak?sentiasa tabah n tak putus asa.semua mak macam tu.

maybe tak sempat lagi nak tulis blog nanti.lagi 2 weeks nak a2 level.

kepada semua ibu2 especially my most beloved mum

eppy becoming mother's day

everyday is a mothers day actually.we just love you.

saturday nite!

2005-04-30T23:35:00.000-07:00

me at home..just bak from giant..been at home since wednesday n probably goin bak to ktt on tusday..yay!
bought new phone cord..saved my day cos da internat couldnt be accessed just cos da cord..huhu..no wonder asik dc ajek..
ble balik rumah..
habislah..pamakanan tak terkawal...waa..makan ape saja..mengamuk..
hahahaha...
sambung sok celoteh..mlm ni nk stadi bio..
cotet @shuha ha... shim..eppy 20th burstday..!!
yay..one of ny peberet fren bak on form 3..had many bittersweet moments together..isk2..

a new day has come

2005-04-22T12:19:00.000-07:00

today my new discipline regime had started.last nite slept at 2..woke up at 6.40..once dah started reducing sleep amount can start serious studying..insya Allah..huhu

projek pagi tadi berjaye
7am pagi tadi
toy:knock2..maya jadi tau
maya:(dgn gaya ala2 frakenstein)owh jadi eh?
toy:ye ar...
crite selanjutnye akan diberitahu nanti..labcom ni nak tutupla..hish saspen btul..
sok ade psycho test..9 smp 12..waa..lame gle..sempat blk jb beb..
hurm..okeh2 nak blah nih

wut's up...?

2005-04-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

halloouu~me just bak from surau..we had maulidur rasul celebration..we had tazkirah delivered by zulhazwan@awang da latest badar president..n amir hakimi another junior..then we had doa wihdah..been a long time since me had one..i've been up to reading lots n lots of mags..u na me it..health today health digest..readers digest...her world..obtained health info..tonnes of them..i decided to give my bod n mind a huge rest from last friday till last mon..recovered my sleeps..did not study at all..cos we only have bio lab for dis week..

da thing is dat once u be lenient to urself..it will request for more..it will be hard to start studying back..to gain da long left motivation n dats wat im facing now...hermhermherm...so much for giving myself "sum" rest..it ended up demanding for more~

we went to intec last monday..a nice place to study to meet da indonesian bound students der..there were 26 of dem..n definitely a "cute" "nice" bunch of lot..hihi~reunited wif GIHA my belovedddd fren~~!! how i miss her damn lots..!actually i wanted to surprise her..but shet found out im coming anyhow..spoiler~i damn wanted to talk more to her but time was constraining..i even considered on staying der for da nite..aziah n anas were devouring me to stay..yay~but dey got classes on da eve ..xm toy..dahle tak bawak baju..gilo ker~i better get going..mayb next time..if der is any more "time"..

chek ning da clever saved our day by sending a letter to pak lah by hand regarding our indonesian bound student fate(bout da jpa's sudden change in plan to send us to indonesian medium unis) so pak lah instructed jpa to review dis matter seriously fearing bribery might be taking place.so wen maya's parent called jpa yesterday eve da jpa officer said "mmg confirm akan dihantar ke english medium sbb perkara nih dah dibawa naik ke kabinet.we try to get da recognition a.s.a.p"

so der u go..i can breathe a fraction sigh of relief..y do i say a fraction?to me i'll never prosper or rest in peace fully as long as dis matter hasnt been finalised yet..to which place we're really are going to be sent to..da recognition hasnt been certified yet..n we've got only few times left here..Ya Allah permudahkanlah segala-galanya..kami berusaha dan bertawakkal kepadamu..sesungguhnya kami ini hanyalah hambamu yang lemah dan tiada daya tanpa pertolonganmu..

my ideal day would be:

*eat properly according to da right nutritions which means:

1)drink heaps of plain water

2)include dairy products,fruits n lots of veggie(supplemented by taking zhulian's vegi vera

which is 1kg of veggie grinded to serbuk..yay~)

3)cut the carbs..increase da wholemeal n grains..huhu

4)don miss any meal...which i unlikely to do..hehehe but no supperla~don eat 3 hours b4

sleep cos it wont be digested

5)reduce minyak yo!

*exercise regularly

*emotionally stable :)

*organised ibadah~god..help me..dis matter most...

my utopia:

*a dumbbell :P..lose dat underarms cellulite n show dat muscle..!been borrowing fuzzy's dumbbell..keke

*proper time management

*knowing my future placement of study..please..hurry jpa

*at home wif cuna n da nasty others

*good trial result n da spirit for a2...u go gal..!ganbate!

*hubungan ngan Allah n manusia improve

takot dah nak kiamat..ntah2 nak further ijazah pon tak sempat..amal ibadah sangat sikit dan tak sempurna..hati masih hitam..ilmu masih cikit..Ya Allah berikanku petunjuk dan hidayah dan keikhlasan dalam setiap perbuatanku..sesungguhnya hidup ini ialah ibadah kepadamu..agar setiap saat setiap langkahku tidak ku sesali atau tersilap...kerdil n banyaknya kelemahan dirini...

last nite i had a dream

a few of my ex classmates appeared:ili najlaa..lili..amyriah..ade cacing??ustad??hurm..takkan rindu diorang kot n aku pakai tudung labuh..wah..bilakah?

xm owh xms...

2005-04-15T10:40:00.000-07:00

waa~just finished my biology option exam..imagined dat i finished doing da 3 questions in da 1st 30 minutes..n spent da last 30 minutes roaming my eyes yawning n had to recheck my answers a few times...yay~ didnt expect dat..m hisham messaged me notifying dat da questions are based on da papers dat he gave us which i had done n went thru many times before..waa..didnt expect da questions to be damn straightforward..eniwey i've been studying da last minute style yg kalo nk stadi stadi kalo dah tak larat tdo jek...rase kagum ngan rumet ko..yg tdo mlm hanye 2-3jam ajek to revise gle banyak stamina dak tuh..die tak boring@ngantok ke stdi ha?papehalpon..stadi2 gak..makan makan gak..tdo tdo gak.(bajet falsampah hidop..)...dedulu ms as level..wa kamikaze r aku..pantang buang mase..laktuh slagi tak abis stadi takley rest in peace..caya ar dedulu..okeh2 enuf..started reading mammalian physiology last nite but my mind kept wandering to my best fren marlia which is far in utm..remembered da talks we had..da fasting spm months which i frequently cabut lari pi her house at parit jawe..waa~apsal sentimental sgt nih??~huhu..miss u siti marlia abdul rahim..herm..time cause us to move on wif life..wut will happen in da next ten years?..eniwey..after finishing damn early..just now..bkannye ape~dah lame aku tak ade mase berlebihan time xm..kalo tak asik rush ajek..ces..pastu mate melilau tertancap kat mr saufi yg tgh dok kt depan pgang sum kin of booklet~apetuh?revise stadi ke?(die amik marine biology kt upm master)..owh...eh..ma'thuraat..tgh recite...how cute is dat?(i mean da action not da personla..)umph..bagosla tuh..den mr liam (chem lect )yg bz hulu hilir sjak jadik sup nih..waa~die nih mmg workaholic..adeke takleh tdo mlm cos pk psl lab session..uish dahsyat tol..kagum2..ptg nih got statistics n prob which i havent gone thru..nak stadi memolek..pastu ptg nih after xm..nak jog..then tonite ke..nak read redaers digest my peberet reading materials!!den have an early gud nite sleep..hooray...~~!got only bio lab nxt week..wich means must stadi hard for phy n chem core..!!hopefully~

ooh la la~

2005-04-12T12:40:00.000-07:00

today's da first day of da xm..got options chem n physics...wut ive been doing dis past weekends..??study..lots of sleeps...n lots n lots of eatingS!!Idunno i just have the desire to eat eat eat n eat..(waa..takot tak??hiperbolanye~)went to fatin's room ate her kedah made bahulu like a badak huhu..how come??i dont get it??y i like bahulu so much dat time??hahaha~sorry fatin u had to watch ur cute fren here turning into a badak bahulu..

naa..i accidentally damaged my electric kettle..wut i did?

air below da min level tanpe aku sedari..

effect:filamen pemanas tuh hangusSS!

tahniah toy..wut a great absent minded job..!

ha~water supply in my apartmen is turning to da colour of sarsi..dat is soo bad..tolonglah ktt

read kak ana's blog ..bestnye go into m,ind exploring task..a level is soo boring n theoretical..my life is soo stagnant..i cant get to go into medicine..

owhh..heppy burstday to dearie natasha!

wish me luck in my xms..!

OHH

2005-04-08T12:23:00.000-07:00

last nite went to surau..bak to apartment at 9.a5 tried to study yet i couldnt concentrate..dunno..i just felt damn tired n worn out..ha..maybe cos i jogged dat evening..30 minutes all alone..da last time i jogged was last monday morning wen da class was cancelled..i couldn rectify why..but these days i just have the desire to do things all alone by myself..herm..maybe im turning into sum kinda anti socialist??hurm..dunno..i just need sum space calamity n privacy to sort my mind out these days..wahahaha~a philosophist huh?..but eniwey wen boredom was invading me n i tried burning aromatherapy candle to get focused!!(even dat didnt work though..ting tong!).my beloved dearie sista hudanesz called me!!yeehaa~u were my saviour ;)..wahaha~marilaa bergayut~..smp 2 hours..pity her..dahla exhausted giler..i could imagine her day..workload marathon..n yet im relaxing suffering from studying>?how could i??she still rawks n cool!!(despite being "nobous" bout...tut..~muahahahaha~)which reminded of how much im damn missing her n wish dat she could just be beside me at that rite moment..waa..hellishly mis her~
enihow..dat particular phone call made me tersentak of da mistakes n da off track things i had misdone..ya Allah..how could i~?it was sum kinda of hidayah..Ya Allah..teruskanlah bagi aku hidayah n taufik dlm ape jue bentuk sekalipun..agar aku tak tersasar dgn sumthing yg aku tak sedar..sumtimes..kite tak sedar..sikit demi sikit iman boleh berkurang tanpe disedari until one extent kite rase neutral@immune wat mende yg once dulu had been against our pride..dan kesimpulannya begitulah cara syaitan menyesatkan manusia..biar kite ignorant..myb cos everyone else pon do such things or take dat things for granted...then later kitekan menyesal..
ya Allah bagilah ku hidayah..~
thanks dearie sis..
luv ya till end...
~me yg caffeine depended nowadays..
BE ON DA RITE TRACK AGAIN...!

thursday..

2005-04-07T13:30:00.000-07:00

today is just like any typical thursday for me.had only 2 morning classes..intended to fast n to bersahur dis morning..heheh..i did wake up at 5 eniwey but considering i was tooo damn mals nk bgn after going to da loo i dozed of again..today is kinda boring..my rumet jaja went to fetch her passport while aida went bak home yesterday..("nak balik tak ah toy?..boring ar..".."balik jele")..huh..so after clas did sum maths n ate all alone..next tuesday got option phy n chem paper..ganbate!
last nite pza called..wakaka..bergayut cm monyet mmg dasar mami jarum..sume cter kuar dari brader kupang yg mahal..(watak baru dlm idop aku)hinggelah....infinity(melampau ar tuh~)kol 10 barula aku stat wat notes environmental phy~
n yeah..my 50$ notes dat i tercicir on monday(duit mr kuldip for grad dinner~(waa..i replaced wif my own moneyla..)was found by a matriculation boy..waa..maseh ade lagi org jujur dlm dunie nih..tak kusangka..da lost was too insignificant as i was too sad on monday..smp satu ari tak blajo~
eniwey..thanks to encik hafiz tersebut ;)

xams...

2005-04-06T14:17:00.000-07:00

me havent gotten access to internet almost a week due to the server down..jpa came on monday n da outcome was%$#@*$#!! im damn furious...hellishly mad..still is n will ever be...wut would u do if ure in my shoes?ur fate lies on da hands of corrupted officers..n u've got no means to alter it...we work hard..we study well...n get good results..do we deserve all these>??i don think so..sorry dat we don believe any of his fake face n laughs..the thought of his lies make me damn SiCK..n we were damn annoyed with his FAKE acting n LOUSY cheating...he needs to go to bengkel latihan lakonan n cheating..wut more he wanted to separate us to 11 different unis in indon wen all these while they'd been telling us.."akan dihantar ke 3 top unis only..don worry.."WUT DA??dis is damn discrimination n betrayal.i dun care bout their policy..wut?GTG?government to goverment or birocracy or chronism..nobody cares bout us...everybody else had their own kepentingan sendiri.. n all i know we're da scapegoat n it had always worked dat way..hasnt it..?thank you for making my life easier..jpa..sumthing just have to be amended..

read jmin's blog..uik jmin jerawat aku kejap ade kejap taderla...huhu

read pza's blog...tgk gambo2 de..bestnye hidop dlm environment keislaman.,..sejuk jiwa dan raga..

just wish me luck for my upcoming trial on monday..

wif da jpa thingy on ur mind..its been quite distracting for us all..

let me concentrate..pray for Allah forgiveness..n ..blessing..

its been a season of tears..for us alll..

me..have to be strong..

bak again~

2005-03-27T14:11:00.000-08:00

its down to sunday been at home since thursday nite..skipping da friday class..poor me..trials gonna take us from 11april till 27may..den afterwards i can go bak home again..its gonna be a lengthy month..ive neva been like dis wen i was in maahad..maybe now we have cunna..the love of my life..my darling angel..ever since she recuperated from her fever she'd become her usual self..ever jolly n cheerful..i just love to cuddle her n chant.."sayang..cinta.."over n over again..kelakar kan..?she neva fails to cheer me..even though sumtimes she comes n scribble sumthing on my homeworks..rummaging thru my backpacks..interrupting me wen im typing..she's still a dearie~

den bout tmah~i still have to laugh wenever reminded of her getting 3 stalk of roses from her 4th former die hard obsessive fan n she had to carry them by hand (cos she walks to home) afraid of damaging them..arriving home dad was eager to put them in a vase n till now the dried roses still stand inside da vase beside dis comp..mum just laughed..at least dat solve da puzzle inside my head of da origination of the dried roses..(sapelah kat umah ni nak beli,kan?)..then another obsessive fan abg jual ice jelly dat neva fails to annoy my dad.."ayah kat depan ni dlm kete selambe jek die ngorat tmah kat belakang kete..hish..rase nak lempang ajek"..kuang3..ngorat2 pon harga ice jelly jual ngan kitorg still 2$.apela..~tak bijak btol~ayah plak dah shave his hair..looking cuter..man plak dah start to be conscious requesting for facial cleanser claiming he's starting to have pimples(wen actually he's not)..while ecad has undertake a new occupation of "pengutip besi buruk".. just to feed cacing2 dlm perutnye (xtra money for xtra3 junk food..)apela nk jadi ngan bebdak nih..but 1kg he got 50 cent..mmg dasar uncle scrooge..me plak last week tak stadi sgt..pi klia twice den on wednesday we had bArbeq mentor mentee party..on which me collaborated wif my mentor pn aini yg rawks to sing karaoke neva had a dream..which we actually turned up 1st!!cool,huh?hahaha~nyanyi lagu senang..suke2..neway..it was ladies night..no alevel boys..so boleylah aku ronggerng ckit2..cool n fun!!~u guys have to view those pics i uploaded on Toy's fotopage..n do gimme sum comments..!der..just click on da links der...>okes~

2005-03-22T16:00:00.000-08:00

yeah..rite..so my posting is considered as citer kanak2..herm..guess i yet havent grown up..huhu..~been to klia last sunday..sesaje jek...dak2 mahad yg fly to japan on dat particular day was antu(shafik samin),balau n aizat amir..(siap makan kerepek ngan mak die lagi tuh...tak malunye aku nih~).jali ade gtau de nak anto dak sains selangor..didnt expect him to come wif irazi as well...den there was also raimi (whom dey called "anjing"(jahat giler)!!)..n taufik who were der sending antu..but in da end tak sempat jumper balau pon..pi makan burger king ngan malaun2 pembuli tuh...naik atas balek depa sumer dah nak ready to check in..mlm nih will be going to klia again wif da kisasian..mlm nih padil samsir jek yg fly...im not dat close to him...tapi who knows ade dak2 mahad yg nak anto die..ley jumpe...eniwey transport free g jeklah..wey2...udah2 stadi2..trial is on da 11th..

2005-03-18T23:51:00.000-08:00

kebelakangan nih aku rase mase berjalan dgn kadar yg amat menakutkan..mungkin sbb tahap motivasi aku nk mengisi hidup aku dgn mende2 yg berfaedah smakin merudum...yesterday pi shangrila hotel gi usha ballroom die..pastu lencong p alamanda..haha...6 org berhimpit kat blakang tuh..me..ika..dilla..aida..pastu adrie n lan wakil lelaki solo..bile sensorang laki abisle dok kene buli verbally jek..mase tuh dahle aku pose..pastu berbuke dlm kete pn prema mkn waffle sugar cinnamon yg amatlah sedap dgn rotiboy jek..huhu..pastu kol 9.3o pi meeting..balik apatmen kol 11..layan shariza punye citer..(macam-macam ada..lalalala)..pastuh fatin plak ..layan 2 org makhluk nih tgn pon tak gerak2 walaupon muke ngadap buku..ces..last2 giveup kol 1 trus tdo..bnyk mende yg wat aku bengang baru2 nih..bengang ngan 3 org representative jpa yg mai cni n membawe perkhabaran yg mybe kitorng akn dihantar ke uni indon yg gune indonesian medium..WHUT DA HECK??...sume cam buhsan2 n sakit ati..tataula kalo info tuh salah....since org jpa nih slalu memutarbelitkan fakta2 dari kitorang mude2 lagik kt cnih..tapi kalo btolla..aku mmg blur n speechless sungguh2...ape gunenye kitorang amik alevel 2 taun n ielts..stadi bebetul..get good results??tolongla prihatin ckit ngan prasaan n appreciate usaha org ..kalo btul..mmg sah diorang putarbelit n bagi janji2 palsu n kitorang kene tipu besar nih..mane bley jadik..mentang2 kitorang dak2 baek..tindas plak ek..dah diakui yg doktor2 keluaran uni gune indonesian medium mmg ade masalah beso esp dlm komunikasi bile keje nanti..camne yg nak further specialist nanti??nak adapt balek to english after adapt to indonesian..aku tak paham sungguh nape program international (gune english) tak diiktiraf walhal yg gune bhs indon diiktiraf..sungguh2 tak phm..ke nak jimat kos??tolonglah jpa..dah2 lertuh uji kitorang.. aku..kitorang dah lalu macam2 dah..smp dah rase immune n lali smp ke tahap blur n buhsan..sudah2la tuh..kitorang pon ade perasaan gak..cubalah kalo anak2 korang kat tempat kitorang..scholar tuh duit RAKYAT tuh...takyah la bagi janji2 palsu lagik...aku tatau la sejauh mane kesahihan fakta nih..wait n see ar..kalo betol mmg AR..

owh...

2005-03-10T04:33:00.002-08:00

pening pening n pening..dedicatela lagu pening m daud kilau n ezlyn tuh kat korang sumer..serius aku slalu pening..bloved sis huda..how ure doing??hope all's well wif da tutoring thingy..me poe todayn dis eve nak pi masjid bbst..ade ceramah maal hijrah..InsyaAllah la..feels like the time is swooshing by so swiftly..dah mid march pon..scary..nothing new wif my life though..except dat my stairmates been busy practising da steps for asmaradana..wakaka..for da grad dinner..naik buhsan aku dgr lagu tuh ar2..

owh...

2005-03-10T04:33:00.001-08:00

owh...

2005-03-10T04:33:00.000-08:00

2005-03-05T13:03:00.000-08:00

wawawa...me sakitnye hati..tried to upload pics in my fotopage but in vain..pending..sedeynye..~last2 upload kat frenster jek..sakit hatiku..nampaknye dearie sis huda tak dapekla me nk display gambo2 terbaru..kalo nk nengok new pics pila kat my frenster..huhu..me missing u..nih kat umah..lom mandi..hehe~arinih nak kuar pi celebrate burstday mommie n ecad...eppy 10th burstday mishad..ahmad irsyad abdul karim..my beloved cutie lil' bro..~may u cease in becoming uncle scrooge as u grow older..kuang3..!

owh..eppy blated besday ekin aman n idzlan sukeri!..3rd march ago..

mommy!

2005-03-01T15:00:00.000-08:00

huda cece..congrats on bcoming a tutor!!!heard that its damn hard to bcome atutor especially wen ur a foreigner+ wearing tudung.n dey only take those pursuing master.da odds all seemed to be against u..but u've neva gave up eniwey..n looked like ur hard work seems to bear fruition..wut i've predicted came true!!yikes!!im so xcited for ya!ganbate!!u've neva failed to make us all proud.. (",)..isk..isk..missing ya already..

me had no class since dis morning been studying chem..looks like im turning into a baby nowadays..kol 11 dah ngantok..tak larat..trus tido..ingat nak wake up..but dream on..woke up at 8..huh..overdose of sleeping..looks like i have to cut down n my leisure time if dats my sleeping trend..kurangkn borak..ade mase jerk stadi..(huargh..lagi 2 months jerk!!)InsyaAllah..biar stadi ckit tapi make sure mase stadi tuh berkualiti..fokus 100%.chaiyok!!
dis eve da final netball match.sengal2 opposing arowana..me is playing da WA..waa..pk2 rase cuak..keke..tomorrow da closing ceremony..heard dat jpa is coming..hukeleh..ya..we lost in da volleyball match.but it was marginal ..playing 3 sets..da last set cam dah ilang passion..haha.. papepon mmg tader rezki..main suke2 jek kan?

feels like going home dis weekend..been missing home lately..it has only been 3 weeks yet it seems like eternity..(hehe..hiperbola tak? )..hah..EPPY 42ND BURSTDAY TO our BELOVED mummy!!Pn Sharifah Zaleha Syed Ibrahim!!definitely da coolest mum in da galaxy..ececeh..
mum..ur my highest love(after Allah n Nabi muhammadla..)n i'll do anything within my means to make u happy..n I REALLY DO MEAN it..cos u mean da world to me~Just no words could evoke my feelings 4 u..sob..sob..

azra's surprise burstday party last friday went damn well despite da time punctuality deviation..n everyone had a fabulous plus tiring time..mie n azra is such a sweet n compatible couple..wishing dem an everlasting wonderful relationship!!snapped some cewl pics..ill upload dem later..bile balik umah nanti..

last but not least..eppy blated besday to miss aishah muhammad@ecot.on..27th february..njoy life bebeh!!

2005-02-24T12:55:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah..highest gratitude to Allah..our team managed to advance to the final volleyball n netball today..yesterday was tough competing against group b that is not the least lackaidasical n hebaat..the match lasted until azan maghrib..emotions were running high n i spontaneously snapped at few people yesterday though i quite(quite?) regret it today..huhu..dat was explicitly inevitable.minor injuries were unavoidable:me scratched my palm resulting in two microwound..hehe..not to mention a major backache as i woke up from sleep that doesnt bother to leave me alone even until now..ika managed to get herself a bandaged ankle..while azra got a melecet feet..ila then suffered seevere backache preventing her from running around while kia karim (a junior) injured her pelvic..hurm..hurm...owh forgot to mention da tug of war yesterday ..managed to emerged as runner up lost to da arowana team..but seriously i didnt feel myself pulling at all during the final meeting..maybe cos we were'nt ready??hurgh..tader rezki kot..it just happen in a blink of an eye..(the losing)kekeke...highest syabas to a's team anchor haslina who managed to stay macho n hang on tight der..kuang3..sis is going bak to aussie today !!gonna miss her muchh!!

me n lethargic..

2005-02-21T10:37:00.000-08:00

wakaka..been a long time since da last entry...been very lethargic recently..planned to go bak home da previous weekend but thought da physic forecast xm is gonna b dis week n tak ready lagik but da thing is finally postponed to next week due to da sports festival..glad dat da marching is finally over ..three hard days of toiling..preparing those funny fancy stuffs plus da outings of goodies buying..luckily our mr pres got a car..herm..i could count da minutes i spent last few days on studying..whoa..a2 level is only 3months away!scary..but still taking things for granted..

missing home..sis is departing bak to aussie dis coming thurs..feeling a deep sorrow..

wut i've been up to???

*physic n math studying..(boley kire ngan jari..kehkeh..)

*br abis reading..fadhilah menundukkan pandangan..the need to jage our pandangan..dose yg ramai org tak sedar n slalu dibuat pd zaman ini(termasuk akula..)sehingga bile buat dah tak rase berdosa..

tgk aurat from medias..(mags..tv..books.) is also considered zina mata..

la taqrabuz zina..(Insya Allah...)

*getting a bit extra sunshine exposure..i think im getting darker...

*practising volley(for fescott n for fun) that i've left since primary skool berkedane ilmu aku..

*playing netballs...just to tire the body..nanti takyah stadi..(wut a falsampah!)

da sports festival opening ceremony was quite fun n fine..only our sport team..da green team or da s square team (stands 4 sengal-sengal..keke..gedik tak name?)got da mascot..i call it jimbo da frog..bile jimbo kuar everyone cheered..jimbo walaupon wanita amat berkeyakinan n tak malu in making aksi2 yg membuat sume org terburai2 gelak..aku memang tak larat..tak sangke ade org seyakin tuh!gaye die cam pemakai maskot professional..budak nih mmg berbakat..kehkeh..salute r.terhibur!jimbo continued to get da attention of everyone..taking pics wif her..haha..tak sie2 3 ari wat jimbo..

2005-02-17T12:30:00.000-08:00

reunion apartment..

2005-02-14T19:00:00.000-08:00

ada satu criter..ade due orang budak comey(perasanla jugak diorang nih..) turun nak pi main netball tepat kol 6..maklumlah tadi dila bro dah jerit ajak main netball.."korang..tepat kol 6 tau!"..yela..azam maal hijrah kan..tetbe nak menepati waktu..slame nih asik ditunggu orang jek kan..dah smpai kat court diorang pon pelik nape tader org lagi nih..pdhal dah 6.05..tunggu punye tunggu smbil gelakkan bebudak ssk yg tgh orientasi kene main tiup tepong..kuikui..smpaila kol 6.30..."pergh..bebudak nih mane?..bio btul.."yg kurang sabau sikit tuh berkate..jom ar pi cari deorang...pegi kat gate jerit name dila bro..keke..dila bro kluar.."eh..korang sorila..tadi aku cal tader org angkat..dak2 ni sume tanak main.."ces!.."owh..dila.smpai ati ko..nanti aku bagi ko testi jahat2.."yg kurang sabau tuh ancam..pastu..jom ar pi jogging..sorang tuh rase mls cos mangkin die tak nmpak batang idung jogging lagih..tetbe jek ati de brubah nk jogging plak..keyla aku naik atas sat amik duit nk bli laksa..turun blk..hehe..mls plak nk jogging.. jom ar pi cc..keke..due org jek makhluk kt cc..tetbe sorang lagi housemate mereka masuk.."kuang3..nih reunion apartmen ke?"..begitulah crite suatu ptg yg tdak sehat....sekian terime kaseh..

erm..eppy blated besday tuh mis marlia..(9.2)..yuhana(12.2..)n eppy besday mis maizatul alia..valentine's girl..huhu(14.2..)..njoy sweet 20! :P

me dah stat ridu kat cunna..!

final countdown..

2005-02-13T15:32:00.000-08:00

final countdown..nk balek ktt ptg nih..amik bus kol 4.3o..hehe..smp mlam lah aku jawabnye ..dahle balik sesorang...hehe..survivor..

erm..tanak balek..

kene balek jugak

naik nih dgr ade festival sukan jadih ke tak tataula...

herm..dpt result yg bengeng..hihih..

see u guys in ktt

amy ajak pi um ujung minggu nih..tataula nak pi ker tak..

sis amik flight 24th nih lalu singapore..ble lagih nk jumpe..sedey@ iskkkkkk100X

owh harituh kuar ngan amy yuhana ngan ami...pi angsana..waa..rindu kat kengkawan...

yu keje kat sushi king..cool huh?jadih cook lagik..kekeke..cm tak caye aku..

wa..korang bile nak reunion..watle reunion lagih b4 aku fly..(kekeke)..

owh aku linkkan fotopages kat blog nih..usha ar..gambo aku n kaum kerabat aku..hihi..

key..me signing off...

erm

2005-02-08T14:09:00.000-08:00

kate2 hikmah pade harini ialah:

"benih yg baik walau dicampak di mana2 pun tetap akan menjadi pulau"

(quoted by beloved ustazah wan hakimah)

lame day...

2005-02-07T22:11:00.000-08:00

nothing much for today..accompanied mum to kipmart n giant..did sum shopping...n did sum maths work..recalling da conversation wif aida n fuzzy the other day:the need for good skincare..three basic stufs:cleanser,toner n moisturiser is vital for a good healthy complexion when u grow older..hahaha..plus to avoid having pigmented skin wen u age..so take gud care of ur skin now by having these three musthave basic stufs!(rasenye mmg sume org dah ade pon kan?)cos i just started to have them beginning of dis yer..baru ade kesedaran..jage skarang to ensure masa depan muke yg cerah..hehe..'simple' products are quite gud n recommended for healthy unproblematic skin..but im using palmer's evenout skin toner..containing beta hydroxy n tea tree oil that helps to remove dead cells n tighten the skin pores...so basically its a complete care...n moisturiser n cleanser im using nivea:recommended for asian skins..hurm..n it is very vital to use uv protection wen u go out or even at home cos da uv ray is able to penetrate thru windows..asia's uv ray requires protection of at least spf 25.but most common products in da market only have spf15..oklah..better than not wearing anything at all..n we need to renew our sunblock@moisturiser every 4hours cos it is absorbed by da skin..hehehe..luv ur skin!

cinderella's day out..

2005-02-06T22:54:00.000-08:00

sis n tma went to cs dis morn wif k.rifhan n rufai..the ori plan was for me to follow suit plus to wake up at 8 n went jogging..but BINGO!i woke up at 9.30 n out of da blue felt out of the mood to go to cs..herm..i just felt like da house spring cleaning an laundry cannot be procrastinated NEfurther..i'll make me feel congested..sis asked me "r u sure?".."yeah..im damn shore"..so der i was :a cinderella wif two musketeers.did the laundry(tons of them!)..hung n folded da clothes..swept da floors..dusted dusts on every surface i could see(hehe..hiperbola!)..scrubbed da toilets even..my two musketeers:man was ordered to vacuum n cleaned da comp's room n ecad was assigned to hang da nappies+mopped da floor..after cuna@himawari spilled da scrub liquid..da floors need moppin' eniwey..foreva jalan paranoid cuna had been insisting to wear shoes inside da house recently..hish!wen she's not sightseeing she'll find sumthing else to do :like playing inside the bathroom for hours..huh..paranoid..hyperactive

n despite da scorching heat me did the gardening n weeding wif cuna accompanying me around wif her pooh ciplak..keke..dad plants all da plants n da plants watering will be done by enione but wen dad's or mum's bz to remind anyone to water them...nobody cares..esp the WeEdING!so basically..i just oppose the idea of starting on sumthing but not doing it whole heartedly..or ..separuh jalan dah terbengkalai..so pitying those plants..dah tanam kenelah jage..i felt that im called to do the weeding everytime im at home..hurm..

yesterday..went to mse to fetch sis..like she mentioned..her house is like umah pendatang asing..hehe..i think quite spacious..just need a little painting..met IS..sum1 sebaye wif me..she had 3 months of intern der..then..she can straightly work..seeing her..my frens:limah n zulfa...(doing practical already)..n marlia(janji nak support aku ble die abis stadi..keke)..lyza..lg 2 more years to study..amyriah that almost one year in medic degree..make me think..uik..lagi 6 taun..lame sey...

ThE RoAD noT TaKeN..basically that summarise my path..myb me blajo lebey lame..amik alevel..masok uni indon kene amik ntrance xm n interbiu lagik..i know da facts r against me n sumtimes ble pk it is bothering..so i just chose to not pk bout it n just go wif da flows..

keje pon not necessarily easy n undeniably stressful...moreover ur paid to study..so just njoy da time of studying..(quoting wut dr mat rebi said)..herm..njoy alevel eh??herm..let's see..

nway quoting mum's "it doesnt matter how u begin..wut matters most is ur ending"..u go MuMMy!

bak at home!!

2005-02-04T18:51:00.000-08:00

me bak at home finally again!!sesampai jek cunna dgn bangganye terus meluru at me at da gate..uik..pakai baju terbalek budak nih?bhingus plak tuh..selsema yer dek??takpelah still kiut lagik..miss gle aT her~dis journey is tiring..luckily we boarded plusliner which is usually efficient 3half hours jek arrive at skudai..but unlucky me though tired couldnt sleep well on da unreclinable seat..saket pale den!at seremban terminal ate at kyros kebab while fatin n azie at mcd..just didnt feel like eating burgers..me was eating while reading the new york times bestseller the da vinci's code..such an intriguing book!wen i suddenly looked up saw two creatures:abe n mohsin!~!huhu..totally oblivious..chatted wif them a while..den dey finally decided to eat there..huhu..i recommended the kebab with fries to them..maybe they hated the dry salad n i said"its nutritious!"hehe..eniwey most of da guys havent returned to deir respective homes yet..berfoye2 dulu huh?
finally the one week ignorant midsem xm..is finally OVaR!!~huhu..tired of da last minute studies (tgk result nanti mesti lagi ponat) yet still managed to merayap to klcc..dah lame gell tak p cnih..

fatin wanted to look for a perfume 'that defines her' s0 the perfume quest journey started..huhu..numb my smelling receptors from chanel to clinique to christian dior to nina ricci t.hilfiger, kenzo..bla3 u name it..finally she opted for da artistic anna sui..herm..basically i think all perfumes smell just da same..typical.. the stinging detectable scent.. but i think da most distinct one is nina ricci's ..very nice scent..soothing n calming..different..but da price is 200 over.then da allure from chanel n dat anna sui one..really NIce!eniwey me bought a new jeans that costed me only 20$ at isetan.its applemint..damn bargain! tasha n aida also bought da same thing ..hehe borialah kite p klas nanti..kuikui..

yesterday ate tak hengat dunie..really thick choc cake..cheese tarts..crackers..rotiboy..nasi kandar..fried crabs dat costed me 11$(tak sedap plak tuh)whoaa..n lots others!!

huhu..rase cm nak merentas desa pasnih..hins2..

owh..last week me played softball throwing wif fuzzy..(fuzzy yg smakin cantek..ish2)..she complimented me: "u've got good hands at throwing..i mean natural hands.."hehe...(do u have to b taught to throw balls?..i didnt know that?"..hehe..cool fozy..she was her skool baseball player..me at mahad dulu menggemokkan badan jek..lack room for girls sports involvement..lagipon im not dat good at sports...NEway..me quite love playing softball..managed to make homerun twice..heheh..not bad~..tapi dah lame tak maen..asik play netball jek...softball is suitable for everyone to play esp those yg hate netballs..herm..so everyone will get a hand at sports...anyone can play!

herm..dis com is starting to annoy me..recently internet starting to slow...how to overcome huh??

arghh...tensi!!

2005-02-01T11:00:00.000-08:00

aku tensi dgn exam physic smalam..
aku tensi dgn paper stat yg soalan die out of galaxy tuh walaupon aku stadi
aku tensi dgn paper chem yg mane banyak kuar electrochem yg aku tak sempat stadi
mungkin kah esok @ptg nih aku tensi lagih?
maybe...
kalo aku tak buang mase stadi betol2 mesti aku dpt jwb elok2
kalo aku sungguh2 jwb exam tak putus asa maybe i could do better
kalo aku doa btul2 mesti Allah tolong aku
kalo aku tak anggap exam nih cam tak penting mesti aku lebih usaha
so..nanti aku dapat wat ngan tenang
jadi tak tensi lagi!
tapi hakikatnye skarang nih aku rase urat pale aku nih tgh berselirat
jadi rase malas nak stadi..
ish kene lawan nih
ah tengoklah nanti
..kan best kalo rewind time2 spm duluh..?stadi cam best jek..
(*toy monolog dalaman sendirik)
eh..ptg nih phase equilibria exam aku lom stadi lagik kan?

2005-01-28T20:34:00.000-08:00

wednesday:today got photography session wif all alevel seniors batch.quite cool n fun though the weather is hot..hehehe,.. recalling today there's too much gelaks..

thursday:got ceramah perdana:hamba Allah@hamba syaitan...by che' daud che' ngah. . my flu n sore throat worsens..voice changes....yeah in da evening we also arranged tables n chairs for midsem xm..went to pasar malam too..when amy called..miss her badly..she is doing her assignment on genital dysfunction(btul ke eje nih)..kekeke~at 11..got back to apartment i felt damn fatigue..cam hallucinate..after reciting yaasin..decided to call it a day though studies kemane

friday: got 7 hours of sleep..but still i look like a moron(a bit)..flu gets better..yeah..study2 ptg nih(utopia aku)..

my paklong was diagnosed with diabetes recently..my family is really susceptible to these diseases..he also claimed he had food poisining due to exceesive raye korban eating(huhuhu)..sian beloved paklong!
one reminder for me..take things the simple way..for example..most alevel books explain phy in such a berjela way..but wen i refer to spm books..the stuf just seems simpler!
to dearest sis..i just love ya..n pray for our happiness!

oit

2005-01-25T07:34:00.001-08:00

last morning at home..staying at home means zero study..dammit!!my midsem xm is up next monday..core topics + options = headaches wen u dont study enuf.herm..talk about health..last raye aji my ever beautiful aunty from gombak stayed over at my house..being modern n sophisticated(though umo dh almost 40)..she conducted aerobic 4 us..(tapi time nih aku maleh nk join!!)rase rugi plaks..die mmg maintain!!stressing out da importance of being health conscious>>my beloved tokngah(i mean nekngah)..herm..klaka cos we call her tok walaopon she's a lady..org johor mmg camnih~she was warded in the icu due to pneumonia n hipoglysemia..seeing her slumped on the bed helpless n terkulai with her relatives surrounding her makes me feel sgt kesian n helpless she said " memang tak sadar..rase mmg macam dah takde"..rase cm tak sabo plak nk jadi doc.then my sis fatimah..having gastritis..hish3 the things is that take care of ur health..ur diet ur eating it's very vital especially wen ur ancestors had history of particular diseases..illness is god grants..but prevention is better than cure..reduce intake of fatty n sugary n oily stuff for da sake of ur beloved ones..baek berkorban skang dari suffer later..yg very2 menyeksakan!!hish..amal ibadah dahle kurang!!exercise regularly..like take the stairs instead of elevators like at commuter stations( i mean it)..do any form of exercise (pilates is good too n practical!) n do it noW!

oit

2005-01-25T07:34:00.000-08:00

slamat rayi aji..

2005-01-22T00:41:00.000-08:00

me br lawan kopek kuaci ngan man..luckily result die seri...hehehe~to everybody...slamat ari raye aji!!raye aji nih sungguhla sadis buat aku kerna aku bangun kol 10am..smp umah mlm td area kol 10.3o..sgt lepak!pastu tdo dlm kol 2...sadisnye...raye tak rase cam raye..yg membuatkan aku rase ini adalah raye ialah..part makan yg tak terkawal harinih...ish3..dahsyat sungguh~sume aku sebat..just name it..nasi tomato..rendang..mi bandung..ice cream..chocolates..yoghurts..spaggheti yg teramatlah sedap...butter cakes yg bisa mengancam nyawa..hot chocolate drinks..n bla bla bla..bape kalorila aku telan arinih..skang nih hidop mmg kire kalori ajek..huhu..resolution..n i feel the bad urgency or need for me to work on my english..!!have to improve!!n tengkiu smlm pade org2 awam yg terlibat scr langsung @tidak ketike aku sesat di kl smalam...SEGAMBUT ke PUDU (walaupon amatlah dekat..cis!!) n komuter ke sentul yg kuingat ke SEGAMBUT..ISH3..yg pastinye smlm mmg banyak vitamin d yg kulit aku dapek n mencabar stamina aku bejalan laju smbl membawe beg brat(anggap cm dumbbell)..hish..mmg marathon..luckily arrived on the nick of time..pheww!!

today...

2005-01-19T22:28:00.000-08:00

harini aku rase sungguh penat taktaula knape..yg pastinye aku memang penat..now im at segambut, my aunt's house.maybe cos i ate heavy dinner just now?maybe..aku mmg mlantak habes..cam rase rindu ngan lauk kt umah mybe dah immune sgt ngan lauk kat cafe tuh..balik2 ayam masak merah..takpon ikan keli..sambal telor n bla3..the list goes on yg aku kompem korang pon apal(dak kttlar)..esok sesuatu akan berlaku..kekeke...harap2 aku okeh jek..every day..every event in life is like a checkpoint or a pit stop yg will not affect our life much..cos we'll still go on(slagi tak matila)..no matter wut happen,rite?chewah..motivasi sendirik!!
eniwey..last weekend aku spent kat bangi..umah fatin..aku mmg cam couch potato gle..slumped kat sofa bace paper @tgk all sorts of tv programme..cam ape jek..otak aku cramp..so aku watla mende2 tuh..nak kuar tak bley atas sbb2 yg tertentu..kim possible cte kartun tuh pon aku layan..best gak..lawok..bley wat gelak~hahaha..dh lame sey tak tgk kartun..dulu peberet katun aku spiderman..x-men..one piece..mase kecik2 sgt dulu aku ingat yg aku amat tergle-glekan katun my little pony..care bears..gummy bears..aladdin..magic skool bus..hihi sanggup aku bgn awal2 pagi nk layan cter2 tuh..haha..normal la tuh..tapi naseb ar skang aku dh tak layan mende2 nih..dah 'matured'..huhuhu~korang tgk tak cte jepang kt 8tv kol 6 weekends?..queen of lunch time..cter tuh biase jek..pasal restoren..tapi yg wat aku tertarek kt citer tuh sbb heroin die..juge ialah heroin pride..yuko takeuchi(natsumi) tapi dlm cter nih die jadik boyish2..aku rase die lebey sesuai jadik femininla..ayu gituh cm dlm pride...papepon..die tetap cun ar..senyum cam nasha aziz..pastu hero die 'macho'..hero cter 24 hour er jepun.yosuke eguchi(aku amat suke cter tuh!!)watak die yujiro..paling penting ade dis guy..junzaboru..(satoshi tsumabuki) sgt2 kiut..mcm muke jill cte 'jack n jill'..(korang tau ker?)mmg kiut!!..and another gal character..sape name die..tomato..mende ar..muke comey cam doll..serious..(jgn terpedaya ngan aku..name2 jepang tuh aku copy paste..hehe)key to me..all da best!!

2005-01-14T23:00:00.000-08:00

reality versus illusion..i hope to live my life with facing both equally..fascination means breakingaway..relying on sumthing that is unsure or vague..it just couldnt change ur present life.meanwhile..living in reality means gripping on sumthing solid,real...which if u think or work on it might trigger sum progress on ur life.but sumtimes u just feel like dreaming.is that a form of escapism or straying away from facing ur life?herm.maybe...

well..its just a thought away..i have to improne on my maths..!ALLAH HELPS ME.

live life to the fullest.

fav song at da mo':'baby its you' by jojo n 'TRUE' by ryan cabrera.cute.hahah

hait!

2005-01-13T12:00:00.000-08:00

got only two class 4 today..we went to the chem class at 11 when it is actually at 8am..i cant believe we mistook it for 3 weeks in a row!looks like sombody's having alzheimer..muahahah~been indulging in bio n maths revision..dearie sis..go for it!!ade org tuh bakal pengapit pengantin..hihi..way da go!
another thing im on da quest of remebering other people's burstday..try it..good for memory booster n excellent in making sumone happy..!
yeah..n for today:eppy burstday to heikal ismail..anor n beloved great teacher zaini..!!may happiness accompany u guys alwiz!

hurm..

2005-01-10T19:09:00.000-08:00

today is about helping a friend to succeed in ielts..n ordering her food...nah...nyehnyeh...

another thing..im quite upset bout certain things that i cannot express it here..the main point is..i hate *o** 4 today...or maybe forever?nah...

eepy besday to kmar safaruan..isma ..hairazi n zulfazly...celebrate life!!

been a few days..

2005-01-06T23:45:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a hectic day..n so is today..not cos of bz studies..smlam me pi seremban..skip clas maths..tak sengaje cos ingatkan tader klas~tetbe kamis clas pi rabu~then dis morning woke up at 8.15..not knowing dat 8pm chem clas again..heheh..pi klas kol 8.30..(mandi tuh tangguhkan dulu lar..hihi) ape nk jadi nih??today best cos mkn free n dapat 100$ anugerah pengerusi due to the past a level xm..4as..hahah dah berlapok dah result tuh nak a2 dah pon....nie sempena besday ktt lah kekononnye..so ptg tadi takwatpape tercongok kt dewan jek..

n now pun me tgh bz bace sidney sheldon's tell me ur dreams..pasal mpd...multiple personality disorder die bunuh org tapi tak sedar..me cm dah obsessed...lebih utamekan buku citer dari studies...hahah~ insaplah woit!~